Vertigo
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- Feb 2, 2020
- 26
Like spending all your savings and money at once on random stuff, binge eating and binge drinking everyday...
Yeah I've done this on and off throughout my life, spending sprees, binge drinking, drugs, reckless driving, sex with random strangers etcLike spending all your savings and money at once on random stuff, binge eating and binge drinking everyday...
I drink in the evenings in the hope I will pass out and get some sleep. And hopefully shut out the dreams I getyep, i've been binge drinking a lot recently, and i was clean for over a year.
both because i don't care anymore, and nothing else seems to take the pain away at this point.
Damn Daddy Warbucks, shoot that thousand my way instead..Help a brother out.Gonna blow a thousand on shorting the market today. Don't give a shit if i lose it even though I have barely anything in my brokerage account. Don't give a shit if I gain anything, either.
Damn Daddy Warbucks, shoot that thousand my way instead..Help a brother out.
Nah, I would rather leave my family something.
This. So much this. I was very reckless when I was younger thinking it didn't matter because I'd be dead...then had several failures to ctb and had to deal with that on top of trying to put the pieces of my life back together just to keep a roof over my head. I think it is underestimated how much a failure to ctb can destroy someone's life trying to deal with the aftermath while still actively suicidal. Basic things like trying to keep a job, pay bills, friendships, family, relationships etc. I also learned the hard way if someone attempts to OD on pills or drugs as a ctb method, it will be notated in the medical file the patient cannot be trusted with controlled substances and/or has potential addiction issues - meaning getting anything like prescription controlled substance anxiety or sleep medications while in recovery or long term becomes nearly impossible (and later on in life). A red flag like that following someone around can also make it very difficult to even get pain medications if someone ends up with a serious injury, illness or chronic pain later on because future doctors will see it in the medical file then be concerned the patient could try to ctb again on benzodiazepines or opiates.Not so much anymore. I went on a bender once and then didn't kill myself and cleaning up all the messes I made was not much fun.
Tell me how it goes!!!Gonna blow a thousand on shorting the market today. Don't give a shit if i lose it even though I have barely anything in my brokerage account. Don't give a shit if I gain anything, either.
Yeah .. spending down to the last penny, not looking after anything, letting house go to rot and ruin, just making sure my arse is covered for a few days cos I won't be here after that, and then it seems a few more days and a few more days. Wish those few more days stopped coming round though. Currently waiting for more money to buy a mailbox to get sun delivered to so staying in hotel for a few more days as home is horrible and I don't want to be there. No one in it - totally empty and no one goes there but I cant Face being there alone so I'm hotel hopping until I ctb. Will have to be soon as not enough money for another month.
I'm aiming for the sn but I have to set up a mailbox for it to be delivered toSorry to hear your story, loneliness is a killer, many years ago I think people were friendlier now they are frightened to look at you, have you decided on a method to ctb.
Best wishes Geo
I'm aiming for the sn but I have to set up a mailbox for it to be delivered to
Ironically enough I burned like 2000€ on expensive Yu-Gi-Oh! cards. Call me crazy, but I want shiny and pretty cardboard before I die.Like spending all your savings and money at once on random stuff, binge eating and binge drinking everyday...
Good idea! :)I will piss my boss' office the day I ctb