Anyone else dependent on a friend or two ?

[Weebster]

I hate that I'm like this. I hate being needy but we all need real human interaction and preferably from people we get along well with.

 

[Graytaichi]

Me too. I have no friends

 

[its-about-time]

I'm very dependent on one person. Cut contact for about 5 weeks and damn near killed myself (was when I found SS). She randomly reached out worried about me, now we're talking again. I'd probably never kill myself with her in my life. Which is very partially why I ended contact in the first place But yeah, I feel bad that she knows me. I wish she'd never had to have met me. I hate myself that I'm this way and get so needy, solely focused on ONE person.

 

[Weebster]

Me too. I have no friends

I have friends but I'm dependent on them and knowing them makes me feel heartache.

I'm very dependent on one person. Cut contact for about 5 weeks and damn near killed myself (was when I found SS). She randomly reached out worried about me, now we're talking again. I'd probably never kill myself with her in my life. Which is very partially why I ended contact in the first place But yeah, I feel bad that she knows me. I wish she'd never had to have met me. I hate myself that I'm this way and get so needy, solely focused on ONE person.

We're similar but when I cut contact the first time, she never reached out.

 

[CommitSudoku]

If I want to continue living, I will become dependent on others, and I hate the thought of forever burdening others while also knowing it would never even be enough for me. So I feel dependent on others to get through the time right now. But after one particular relationship ripped out my heart and some other important ones ended for various reasons, I've got bad trust issues among other problems. So I'm scared of relationships and hate who I become in them. So in the way having friends or anyone ends up making me not want to be around as much as it makes life tolerable. I'm quite hypocritical.

@Weebster I like how you ask/post so many questions like this. They can really cover a lot of topics and bring up good points to consider/think on.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah. I wish. At least that may be a refreshing change from only having myself to depend on.

 

[downndone2]

Yes, but the one person I want to depend on, will never speak to me again. No one will ever replace this person. I want to die because i lost him. He was what made life worth living and i fucked it up

 

[ThePhoenix]

No, I don't have any friends unfortunately

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Idk. I've always had at least one friend who was like my rock. They were always there for me, and vice versa. But the past 3-4yrs I've had no one. It's been weird. I miss having a good friend I can depend on. Most of them are gone or have moved on. But I've never had such a long period where I felt so alone. I never had the kind of fear and anxiety I have now, and I think it's because I always had someone for support. Someone to reassure me.

It's terrible without anyone. I now feel so lost and lonely. I just wanna sleep cuz im
Not in this pain when I'm sleeping. I really have never felt so horrible in my life. No one should have to feel like this. That's it. Goodbye.

 

[todestrieb]

I have two people that will listen to my ramblings. Thankfully they've also accepted that if I CTB it's not for a lack of trying to find another way. I feel very bad laying it bare for them as often as I do, so I'll disappear for a few days or weeks and pick back up like nothing. I have good stretches of time but mostly not. Poor saps gotta put up with me, that's punishment for enough of their own sins I reckon.

 

[solisoccasus]

I hate that I'm like this. I hate being needy but we all need real human interaction and preferably from people we get along well with.

We all do and from time to time i guess, we deserve to get an assurance from them or at least, from those who really care

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Yes, but the one person I want to depend on, will never speak to me again. No one will ever replace this person. I want to die because i lost him. He was what made life worth living and i fucked it up

I truly understand you :( It sucks.

 

[ikadasui]

Not too much. I just feel worse anytime something comes out of my month, so I try and stick to silent suffering.

 

[whatevs]

I wish. I'm mostly alone in life.

 

[Life_and_Death]

My SO. Literally can't live without him. He is my life. Without him I have nothing and he knows it. I can't even go a couple hrs without needing to message him (although when he's busy/sleeping I can chill but will still message if I think of something to say).

Without him I want to kms, living is completely pointless without him, I can't be happy without him.
With him I hate myself for not being "good enough" and want to kms for him so I'm not adding extra stress on his life anymore.
Yay me for killing myself either way? Lol

 

[WantToQuit]

I'm completely socially isolated and alone.

 

[Weebster]

I wish. I'm mostly alone in life.

Is it unbearable?

 

[whatevs]

Is it unbearable?

Yes, it's very painful. It's not unbearable but it's not really living.

 

[Weebster]

Yes, it's very painful. It's not unbearable but it's not really living.

Is this common nowadays?

 

[whatevs]

Is this common nowadays?

Being chronically ill so you can't drive or go on trips, hold down a job, exercise, drink alcohol etc? No. That's why I am alone personally. I don't think complete friendlessness is common.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Being chronically ill so you can't drive or go on trips, hold down a job, exercise, drink alcohol etc? No. That's why I am alone personally. I don't think complete friendlessness is common.

There's a lot of loneliness for those who don't have the energy to stay out all the time, drink, party, and travel like most young people. I push myself to try and maintain some semblance of not being shut up in a room staring at 4 walls, but most everyone I've met in life wants their friends to be constantly engaging, funny, energetic, always knowing what to say.

That's not possible if you're sick, autistic, or have any issue effecting your ability to socialise. I think people who have families who love them unconditionally take it for granted, because they don't expect their sick relatives to owe them entertainment the way friends do.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I depend on friends for my mandatory social interaction, but as of late, they haven't been willing to deliver. It just makes me feel less guilty about CTB.

 

[Dizzylady80]

I am very dependent on my friends, both emotionally and physically since I'm physically disabled. I think it makes sense and is good for people to be able to lean on and depend on each other with boundaries

 

[Weebster]

I am very dependent on my friends, both emotionally and physically since I'm physically disabled. I think it makes sense and is good for people to be able to lean on and depend on each other with boundaries

The concept of leaning on others seems lost since the West is all about individualism.

 

[sadnurse90]

I have three very good friends. All know I'm having mental issues and I've mentioned or hinted at suicidal thoughts. I talk to them daily, without them I'm not sure who I'd be. They get me through the daily and I'm very grateful.
It's not quantity, it's quality

 

[Weebster]

I have three very good friends. All know I'm having mental issues and I've mentioned or hinted at suicidal thoughts. I talk to them daily, without them I'm not sure who I'd be. They get me through the daily and I'm very grateful.
It's not quantity, it's quality

I wish I could talk to mine every day. You're very lucky.