Anyone else deal with chronic agonizing loneliness?

[Kramer]

It started when I hit 30. It’s made worse by the fact that I’m on disability for mental illness. I see no way to imitate a normal person my age anymore.

 

[LigottiFan19]

Do you have any friends or family you trust and can speak with honestly and bluntly?

 

[Kramer]

Do you have any friends or family you trust and can speak with honestly and bluntly?

Yeah one but it doesn’t help much.

 

[Mentalmick]

It's not so much that I'm lonely for company, it's an inner loneliness that never goes away no matter how many people I'm surrounded with.

 

[Kramer]

It's not so much that I'm lonely for company, it's an inner loneliness that never goes away no matter how many people I'm surrounded with.

What causes that?

 

[LONE WOLF.]

It started when I hit 30. It’s made worse by the fact that I’m on disability for mental illness. I see no way to imitate a normal person my age anymore.

What counts as normal these days when every perverted moral disgrace is tolerated and even encouraged? I reckon Subnormal is the new normal!

 

[Kramer]

What counts as normal these days when every perverted moral disgrace is tolerated and even encouraged? I reckon Subnormal is the new normal!

Normal is being able to support oneself financially and have friends and a relationship without a mental illness fucking it all up.

 

[Mentalmick]

What causes that?

I really don't know. I've always felt like that. It used to just be in dreams, now it's in life as well.

 

[Deleted member 23586]

Me! Ever since I could remember. And for me its never gone away. Like at all.

 

[Quiet Desperation]

Yes, it is what brought me here.

It started when I hit 30. It’s made worse by the fact that I’m on disability for mental illness. I see no way to imitate a normal person my age anymore.

Sorry you are going through this too. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. In this state, even when you do have someone to talk with they generally have no concept of what it is like to be unable to make a solid connection with anyone.

What I always get is one of "you seem fine to me", an insinuation that I'm just not trying hard enough, or that I'm just not sufficiently positive.

For some of us none of those things are true, but it is beyond the ability of the socially healthy to understand. You aren't alone.

 

[mediocre]

I’ve dealt with this for many years. I’m almost 28 now. I live on my own and I am on my own every single day. I never go out or have any responsibilities or any reason to get up in the morning. Now I have so much physical pain too.

I’m sitting alone right now. My anxiety levels are bad. But I can’t do anything but sit in front of the tv for company. Nobody calls me or visits. The winter time is the worst. It gets dark before 4pm which makes things unbearable: I just want to not be here but I can’t get the energy or courage to take the sn. It’s an endless cycle.

 

[Bigpink]

I've always felt lonely, even when I was with a partner. It's been a whole way of life. I've accepted it. I know some people but they're not interested/ busy.
Sitting around waiting.......

 

[drwt]

Yup. Sign me up for that.
Although, I'm lucky enough to be able to say it does go away in the company of some (not all) people. But I never meet anyone so that's not very helpful.

 

[NightmareTour]

I'm agoraphobic and incapable of forming healthy relationships, so I guess that overrides the loneliness. Not a good solution, but it's a solution.

The other solution is just depressing as fuck, I was going to share because I thought it might be funny but now I kind of hate myself, lol.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Me. It's why I'm here.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

I'm often very lonely, even when I'm talking to people. Like pretty much every other emotion, it's painful. I'm also afraid to reach out to people and, even if we're friends, I cringe when I message someone first. That doesn't help things...