Discussion Anyone else addicted to sabotaging their physical health?

[senti-mental]

I've noticed that I always have to be engaging in some kind of activity that negatively effects my health. For a long time i was starving myself,and when i stopped doing that i soon started cutting and self harming. It's like I don't feel satisfied or valid unless I'm doing something that damages my body. I'm not sure if its because i want my physical health to reflect my mental health or if i just dont think i deserve health or if its some sick subconscious desire for attention or what. The best way i can explain it is i feel less empty inside when im damaging myself. Anyone else have the same issue?

 

[TooLate2582]

Eating disorder and generally reckless behavior; I sleep about 3-4hrs a day, I have a constant caffeine drip and I'd do blow 24/7 if it was more readily available and less illegal.

 

[Interloper]

Been ruining my back all my life, I'm gonna be a hunchback of notre dame soon. Definitely feel you.

 

[dresdendoller]

yes very much so. i think its because i feel like suffering from mental health problems isnt enough and i need to be physically suffering for my pain to be "valid"

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Sort of. I like eating unhealthy foods, staying up late to do nothing productive, and just generally lying around the house all day and even though that feels good I know it's sabotaging my overall health (I already have type 2 diabetes) but the thing is I don't care because to me the alternatives (actually eating right and exercising) are even more agonizing and don't count as living in my eyes. I'd much rather die in comfort than live in torture which is what a so-called "healthy lifestyle" feels like for me.

 

[Crazy4u]

yeah in many ways. I didn't even realize that some of my habits are considered self harm. I like the idea of sabotaging my body. I avoid doing anything harmful to my brain because I don't want to lose my mind

 

[Oblivion]

Not intentionally, junk fast food that's very heavy in fats makes me feel a bit better, so I keep on eating non stop day and night, and i have zero energy to do anything other than watching movies and laying in bed all the time. I'm only afraid of getting a stroke instead of death and get paralyzed..

 

[JustSomeDude]

Self-destructive behavior is a go-to. It usually starts with starting dumb arguments with people I care about, staying up too late when I have work, self-harm, all of it. I don't know if I feel less empty, but i at least feel something, I at least feel present

 

[TheSoulless]

Sorry to hear that you're struggling with that.

For the past 4 or so years I've been dealing with an issue with my body, nothing seems to help. Lately I have been smoking because of the frustration, and even more than I used to. It's like, everything's gone to shit already, why not smoke a few? I'm thinking that I'm the victim, and it's somehow justified for me to smoke and sit at my computer all day.

It could be that you feel like you're not in control, and self-harm is your way to cope with that. It's a hole that's hard to climb out of once you're there. I feel like the term sunk cost fallacy would apply here.

Strength to you. Try to force yourself to think of something else than harming yourself when you get tempted. I'm bad at that, maybe you are better.

 

[gottago222]

i only take care of myself so that i can sleep at night. sleep is my only peace

 

[Nevsky69]

An important part of humanity sabotages its own physical health, whether consciously or unconsciously. Any kind of addition, legal or illegal, is bad for your health. Tobacco, alcohol, drugs, certain medications, unhealthy food (unless you cannot afford to eat healthy). There are people who inflict physical harm on themselves because of religious beliefs. There are many ways to harm yourself. Life is very hard and keeping your balance is not always easy.

 

[LoneMisery]

i only take care of myself so that i can sleep at night. sleep is my only peace

I feel if i could properly sleep i wouldnt be in such a state of mind im in. Im a terrible sleeper. And medicine doesnt give you the natural rem sleep we all need to recharge. Im happy youve found a way.

As for the poster, i do the same through my drinking. Ill drink and drink till i fall in hopes of not getting up again.
Only to feel 10 times worse afterwards.
I wish you and everybody on here much luck. I have the upmost respect foe all of you.

 

[senti-mental]

Sorry to hear that you're struggling with that.

For the past 4 or so years I've been dealing with an issue with my body, nothing seems to help. Lately I have been smoking because of the frustration, and even more than I used to. It's like, everything's gone to shit already, why not smoke a few? I'm thinking that I'm the victim, and it's somehow justified for me to smoke and sit at my computer all day.

It could be that you feel like you're not in control, and self-harm is your way to cope with that. It's a hole that's hard to climb out of once you're there. I feel like the term sunk cost fallacy would apply here.

Strength to you. Try to force yourself to think of something else than harming yourself when you get tempted. I'm bad at that, maybe you are better.

thank you, i think it definitely has something to do with feeling not in control. btw, i like your profile picture a lot

 

[TheSoulless]

thank you, i think it definitely has something to do with feeling not in control. btw, i like your profile picture a lot

Thanks! I like yours too. I've always liked Gardevoir.