Anyone deeply embarrassed of themselves?

[Sunoo]

Like I can't move an inch when I'm in public places because I find everything I do humiliating and I can't talk to people because I'm scared they will reject me and think I'm weird, I even feel scared whenever someone looks at me because I think I look so embarrassing and I just overthink everything I do

 

[リンさん]

The utter fear and hatred of being perceived, I can relate to that a lot :( Even going out to get groceries or visiting a doctor is so so stressful. I tend to constantly overthink about the way I look, the way I act, if I'm being weird or rude or not normal.

Sending you virtual hugs, this shit is so tiring

 

[lwlaiet8887]

I used to be like that then I became unhinged (kidding) But yeah anxiety can be a bitch but I overcame it by putting myself in uncomfortable situations repeatedly and eventually it just went away for me. If you can ever it's very liberating, wanna do something embarrassing in public go do it, wanna go talk to those people over there go do it. It will significantly improve your QOL but it will require some effort and rational.

 

[Done_Surviving]

Like I can't move an inch when I'm in public places because I find everything I do humiliating and I can't talk to people because I'm scared they will reject me and think I'm weird, I even feel scared whenever someone looks at me because I think I look so embarrassing and I just overthink everything I do

Yes, I think I look so stupid doing everything, especially because my hands usually tremble and shake a lot and I lose coordination of them often. I think I walk weird, talk weird and even breath weird. And my looks don't help, I feel that everyone looks at me either with disgust, uncomfort or pitty.

 

[Kempel556]

I´ve put myself trough so many embarrasing situations that I just started hating myself and having alot of anxiety, spend a good part of my day thinking about those situations trying to think of a way I could have prevented them but in the end I would be embarrassed either way

 

[Innereye]

Imposter syndrome is an epidemic. There's so much shit wrong with the world

 

[rabbitmalice56]

Yeah i overthink everything too, other than when i do nothing because of overthinking, i also ovethink when i just did something if i did it correctly or weirdly.

 

[SmollMushroom]

Yes, I have strong social anxiety and the symptoms are very similar! Like I would struggle to enter a bar and order a coffee alone for example.
But if I get anxiolytics it gets a bit better.
Without them, if my anxiety is very high, I sometimes can't even leave my home. Like, to the point of getting stuck in front of my main door without opening it.
I guess it'd look funny from an external pov. Just a guy with their hand hovering on the handle of the door, frozen. But in reality is not funny at all :(

 

[avaruus]

I do, always when i go to the grocery store once week, i walk manually so that my walking doesnt look weird. I don't make eyecontact with anyone, when i'm at the store i try to act super unsuspicious as i'm afraid for some reason that people are going to think that i'm going to steal something. I have never stolen but one time a guard checked my backbag by the cashier in front of everyone and i wanted to just cbt then and there. It's been like 4 years and i still think about it.

 

[passivethought121]

Yes. I hate every second where I realize I'm perceived, even if I'm alone. I cringe every time I speak. I get slightly naseous when seeing myself in photos. I despise social interaction. Less because I hate talking, and more so because I feel sorry for whoever has to talk to me.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Of course. My life is deeply pathetic and I sense a lot of scorn coming my way.

 

[toro]

omg me literally i go out w friends have a good time and then return home to dry heave into the toilet about how embarrassing i must've been

 

[Sunoo]

omg yess I fully understand
Like I fidget with my hands and they start going all warm and sweaty bcause I feel so embarrassing doing anything. It feels like all eyes are on you.
Sending you all the love I hope we all get some sort of relief from this

Yes, I think I look so stupid doing everything, especially because my hands usually tremble and shake a lot and I lose coordination of them often. I think I walk weird, talk weird and even breath weird. And my looks don't help, I feel that everyone looks at me either with disgust, uncomfort or pit

 

[Sunoo]

I do, always when i go to the grocery store once week, i walk manually so that my walking doesnt look weird. I don't make eyecontact with anyone, when i'm at the store i try to act super unsuspicious as i'm afraid for some reason that people are going to think that i'm going to steal something. I have never stolen but one time a guard checked my backbag by the cashier in front of everyone and i wanted to just cbt then and there. It's been like 4 years and i still think about it.

Awhh I'm so sorry, I relate because of these encounters it leads to me isolating a lot
It's really sad I wish I was not like this, I feel bad for my younger self

Yes, I have strong social anxiety and the symptoms are very similar! Like I would struggle to enter a bar and order a coffee alone for example.
But if I get anxiolytics it gets a bit better.
Without them, if my anxiety is very high, I sometimes can't even leave my home. Like, to the point of getting stuck in front of my main door without opening it.
I guess it'd look funny from an external pov. Just a guy with their hand hovering on the handle of the door, frozen. But in reality is not funny at all :(

Awhh you don't deserve to go through that
I legit remember my parents forcing me to go outside and I would cry and beg them not to make me go and they would get really mad and call me crazy. I wish people would understand us

I´ve put myself trough so many embarrasing situations that I just started hating myself and having alot of anxiety, spend a good part of my day thinking about those situations trying to think of a way I could have prevented them but in the end I would be embarrassed either way

omg I am so sorry, no one deserves to be put through all that stress especially you. I know how it is I've been feeling like this ever since I was 7 and it would stop me from doing so many things others would enjoy. I hope we can escape everything one day

 

[Spectre]

I'm now terrified of open spaces and going out in public because of this shame. I can relate completely.

 

[BlockHammer]

Currently what im embarresed about myself is the fact that everyone already had a job/life purpose meanwhile i'm still living with my parents (it's not like they were abusive, but in this age normal people should've gotten a job already) despite my effort to applied everywhere

I've been living like this more than 1 year and honestly it just make me more depressed and depressed.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Yes, I have to put on a mask when I go out because I'm so ashamed of my life. I'm not good at faking it so I don't go out often other than to the gym where I can put my headphones on and keep to myself.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Absolutely, for far too many reasons to count.