I actually have my method setup: I bought a shotgun around the start of autumn cuz if I did end up ending my whole shit that's the way i'll be going out (I want it to be as brutal as possible).
However, I can't kill myself this year cuz my birthday next year is going to be awesome so it's postponed indefinitely.
I just can't miss out on that. At least I have my bus ticket set up if something goes horribly wrong down the line later.