Discussion Anybody want to CTB before their pets pass?

[Obliviate]

I just saw that some social media cats passed away which led me to think about my cats again. I cried alot and it hurt me so much for the cats that aren't even mine and that I've never met. I honestly don't think I will be able to handle the death of my cats especially since one of them already has health issues. Just thinking and knowing those dreadful days are gonna happen with the chaotic emergencies and when they pass is gonna kill me. I freaked out so much that I researched cat CPR. I already lost a kitten and it was the worst day of my fucking life. That feeling is just beyond words horrifying and painful. He's waiting for me on the rainbow bridge. I honestly don't think I can make it, I don't think I can be sane and move on after since my cats are the only good things in my life. Leaving first so I don't have to bear their death. It's not because I don't love them it's because I do. It's because I love them so much that I can't bear to see them be sick/ill/see their bodies deteriorate all while being powerless. It's scary because it can happen anytime. I don't know exactly when to CTB, I just know it HAS to be before them. I'd rather be there first waiting for them at the rainbow bridge.

Does anyone feel the same way? I know some are actually waiting for their pets to pass so they can CTB.

 

[saddestbunny]

nah I waited for mine to pass, I wouldn't feel good leaving any pets alone

 

[Obliviate]

nah I waited for mine to pass, I wouldn't feel good leaving any pets alone

Fair enough. I have a family that will take care of mine. Not as good as me ofcourse

 

[CTB Dream]

V sry life cruel all grv this undrstd no want see lovy cat die rly sry hug

 

[Obliviate]

V sry life cruel all grv this undrstd no want see lovy cat die rly sry hug

Thank you for understanding why I would want to go first.

 

[Mr2005]

Had I died a year ago I would have gone before my hero and my dad but I didn't

 

[toofargone6969]

I relate to this. My dog is very old and I just found out she has liver cancer and likely doesn't have much longer. I don't know if I can bare to see her go with my current state. But I also don't want her to not have me at the end, even though my family will take very good care of her. It's a tough one. I'm not sure what the right decision is. I will probably hold on until she goes but I dont know if I can make it tbh.

 

[ApparentlyNot]

Girl, I feel you. I think that, when my cat Bear dies, I will totally break. He is my soul cat, and he is my best friend in the world. I agree with you, I don't think I could bear the pain. No pun intended.

But I also think from the other perspective: I am his caretaker and best friend, and he should have someone who really loves him by his side when he goes. I am planning to CTB within the next few months - perhaps weeks - I just bought a lot of the supplies today actually, and one of the only things I feel truly conflicted about is leaving him. My other kitty is much younger and I think I could ensure a wonderful person would take care of him - in fact, I know my husband will take care of both my kitties and they will take care of him, but I don't know if I can leave my Bear. He is so special and perfect and I am scared to be without him and I am scared that he will be alone and scared without me. My other cat is young and he is an "adventure cat" - I take him to the park, but he gets very anxious, he rips out his fur in chunks when he is distressed and he needs someone who will really stimulate him, spend significant time with him, play with him, and make him comforted when he is not feeling okay and that stresses me out - so many people think cats don't need anything at all. There was a time I believed I could force myself to live, and even find enjoyment in it to a degree, if it was for my cats or for animals in general. I thought like "even if I have to suffer for 100 years straight and it never gets better, if I provide something of value to these precious lives, isn't that okay? 100 years is not that long, I can handle suffering for that long - it will suck, but one day it will be over and I'll have helped a lot of cats" but then I can never fully get behind that idea...

 

[Obliviate]

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I relate to this. My dog is very old and I just found out she has liver cancer and likely doesn't have much longer. I don't know if I can bare to see her go with my current state. But I also don't want her to not have me at the end, even though my family will take very good care of her. It's a tough one. I'm not sure what the right decision is. I will probably hold on until she goes but I dont know if I can make it tbh.

I'm so sorry that's such a tough spot. Cancer pets can survive for many years also so I'm not entirely sure what I would do. If I knew it was a short time, then I would stay and then CTB right after my pet dies. But depeding on how sucidal I am now I don't know If I could last years. I also don't know how true this is but if I go first maybe I can watch out for my pets down below

Girl, I feel you. I think that, when my cat Bear dies, I will totally break. He is my soul cat, and he is my best friend in the world. I agree with you, I don't think I could bear the pain. No pun intended.

But I also think from the other perspective: I am his caretaker and best friend, and he should have someone who really loves him by his side when he goes. I am planning to CTB within the next few months - perhaps weeks - I just bought a lot of the supplies today actually, and one of the only things I feel truly conflicted about is leaving him. My other kitty is much younger and I think I could ensure a wonderful person would take care of him - in fact, I know my husband will take care of both my kitties and they will take care of him, but I don't know if I can leave my Bear. He is so special and perfect and I am scared to be without him and I am scared that he will be alone and scared without me. My other cat is young and he is an "adventure cat" - I take him to the park, but he gets very anxious, he rips out his fur in chunks when he is distressed and he needs someone who will really stimulate him, spend significant time with him, play with him, and make him comforted when he is not feeling okay and that stresses me out - so many people think cats don't need anything at all. There was a time I believed I could force myself to live, and even find enjoyment in it to a degree, if it was for my cats or for animals in general. I thought like "even if I have to suffer for 100 years straight and it never gets better, if I provide something of value to these precious lives, isn't that okay? 100 years is not that long, I can handle suffering for that long - it will suck, but one day it will be over and I'll have helped a lot of cats" but then I can never fully get behind that idea...

That is a very interesting perspective you mentioned at the end of living your life in suffering but as long as you help as many cats as you can and provide value. I totally get it especially at the fact that animals can feel grief and sometimes also pass from depression after their owners pass. I KNOW that no one would take care of my cats better than me but I unfortunately I am not in a position to help animals in that degree even though I would love to. Even with that you need some kinds of privileges and luck. I love my cats but taking care of them is also very stressful especially with all these corrupt vet companies. I just filed a complaint for medical malpractice against a vet. And don't even get me started on the financial aspects of a pet. It's literally robbery. One side it pains me to leave them another side is just tired of living and there is nothing that is enough to stop it. You sound like a great pet parent and I really hope your husband will give them lots of love