I really hate that I am so bad at maintaining contact with people. It's caused almost all my relationships to eventually die out. Even on here - I have been talking to lovely people and am just shit at being more outgoing and talkative. I don't really get actual texts on my phone though.
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RaphtaliaTwoAnimals, lv-gras and Schopenhauer
Texts on my phone I rarely get since I'm almost completely socially isolated in person. I just hear from my dad every few weeks and that's it. I've had a few people message me on here and I try to reply as much as I can, but it's really difficult to do so. If I ever stop replying to you, it's not because I'm ignoring you, it's generally because I'm feeling too drained and exhausted.
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Schopenhauer, RaphtaliaTwoAnimals and lv-gras
Exactly. They said I was hurting everyone with my problems right now ....so I just decided to stop talking anymore. Now they can't hurt me and I can't hurt them.
I really hate that I am so bad at maintaining contact with people. It's caused almost all my relationships to eventually die out. Even on here - I have been talking to lovely people and am just shit at being more outgoing and talkative. I don't really get actual texts on my phone though.
I think back to how many people I've lost because of this. Friends contact me and i'm too sick/ depressed to respond and too exhausted to explain why (not like they'd understand-just think I'm crazy, weird, antisocial). They inevitably get fed up and pissed off at me. Talk negatively to others about me to convince them I'm rude, not a good friend etc. People stop attempting to contact me.
Yes, maintaining friendships is exhausting and in a way I'm relieved that these people are angry with me because it makes it easier to be alone because I don't desire their conditional friendship anyway.
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Schopenhauer, Dead_Inside and RaphtaliaTwoAnimals
Meaning everyone hates him - even people who know nothing of his life/ have never met him - so he's happy to be executed. It makes it easier for him to die.
when it happens that i have a chat with someone online i usually try to reply as fast as i can, and get anxious when they make me wait.
otherwise (email, irl people, ecc.), when the answer isn't a straight yes or no, i definitely take my time.
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