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Blackroom_57

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Dec 25, 2021
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How do you cope with your illness? Do you find that you are getting better with time? It feels like my brain is rotting. Everyday it gets worse and worse despite being on medication.
 
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Hi, schizoaffective here. I'm treatment resistant so I can very much relate to your sentiment. I feel like I've exhausted my options but that is not to say it's the same for you. How long have you been treated for your condition and how many medications have you been on? It can very much be a matter of finding the right combination of medication that can help mitigate your symptoms.

Aside from that, coping can be really hard. My therapist is inexperienced with schizophrenia, so there isn't much help from them but they still provide an outlet for venting. I also have a long term partner that is extremely supporting/understanding and I borrow a lot of strength from him. I take my days easy, doing tasks that I know I am able to do. I also listen to a lot of music throughout the day to keep myself stimulated and distracted as much as possible from my hallucinations.
 
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Blackroom_57

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Hi, schizoaffective here. I'm treatment resistant so I can very much relate to your sentiment. I feel like I've exhausted my options but that is not to say it's the same for you. How long have you been treated for your condition and how many medications have you been on? It can very much be a matter of finding the right combination of medication that can help mitigate your symptoms.

Aside from that, coping can be really hard. My therapist is inexperienced with schizophrenia, so there isn't much help from them but they still provide an outlet for venting. I also have a long term partner that is extremely supporting/understanding and I borrow a lot of strength from him. I take my days easy, doing tasks that I know I am able to do. I also listen to a lot of music throughout the day to keep myself stimulated and distracted as much as possible from my hallucinations.
I've been sick for 5 years but only reluctantly agreed to take antipsychotics like a year ago. Currently taking latuda. Currently it's the depression that is so crippling for me.
 
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2bemyenemy

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Feb 24, 2023
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A metric fuckton of Clozapine.
 
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i am schizoid spectrum diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia age 18 my lifes been absolutely shit here i couldn't recommend life to anyone best avoid at all cost
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Jul 6, 2022
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I'm on the autistic spectrum and have come to realise I could have traits of schizoid. Especially since the pandemic, but before then too, I've seen any socialising as something I'm either indifferent to, or fills me with dread. I don't think it's just autism, since autists can be social, but struggle to read social cues. I've also experienced what I believe to be anhedonia and avolition, which are common symptoms of the disorder.
 
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Jan 2, 2023
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Yeah, i have traits of schizoid personality.

It's really hard for me to open up with people but i think one of the reasons for that is because of CPTSD, it scares me and i get paranoid that people are going to hurt me in some way with my personal information as it has happened before.
 
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Schizoid personality here, most likely a result of emotional neglect in my childhood. Growing up I always had a sneaking suspicion in the back of my mind that I'd never be able to live a normal life, and now that I'm an adult, I see that I was absolutely right.

Everyday gets worse, like you said. I've ruined all of my relationships because I'm so scared of people and I have a horrific compulsion to keep my distance, driving any sane person away. I don't blame them, most people want to live a normal life, me included. I can't provide that for anyone. Others can avoid me, but I'm stuck with me, lol.

I hate social interaction. I see groups of people hanging out and I get lonely, wishing that were me, but then go right back to realizing how much I'd hate to have to interact with anyone. Then I go home and cry because I'm so lonely.

Kinda miserable. Especially when I learned it doesn't go away - the kind of disorder that sticks with you for life. No matter what, I can't escape how I am. Except through death, which is why I'm here. So, to answer your question, that's how I'm coping.

I'm sorry to hear your meds aren't working, though. It is brave that you are taking those steps to help yourself regardless.
 
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