Discussion Anybody here due to chronic pain?

[Blackroom_57]

Physically there's nothing wrong with me. however the psychological pain I experience gets so bad sometimes that I think I might actually kill myself impulsively. My entire life has been destroyed. I can't hold a job, I can't go to school, I can't have friends, I can't function at all. I'm only not homeless because I live with my mom. My future is either homelessness or rotting away below the poverty line on disability (which is only $1228 CAD where I live). I'm only 23 and I have no future.

Anybody else in this boat? My biology has failed me completely and every day the walls close in more and more. Been at this for 7 years now and It's very clear that I'm fighting a losing battle.

My diagnosis isn't clear but I have to take a fuck ton of psychiatric medication. Antipsychotic so I'm not psychotic, effexor so i'm not an anxious wreck, wellbutrin for no fucking reason, and lamictal which is supposed to make my moods stable but has only helped a little bit and I'm at a pretty high dose. According to my psychiatrist I have symptoms of schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, and depression. I'm living in hell everyday.

 

[vaguebluur]

I empathize with this too much, I'm in 24/7 agony and homeless rn the struggle is real I've been in hell for years too brother

 

[Blackroom_57]

I empathize with this too much, I'm in 24/7 agony and homeless rn the struggle is real I've been in hell for years too brother

I am sorry you are homeless. You are stronger than me. If I was homeless I would kill myself immediately with a rope.

 

[vaguebluur]

I am sorry you are homeless. You are stronger than me. If I was homeless I would kill myself immediately with a rope.

I'm waiting to get my GBL I want to treat my self to a peacefull death

 

[Blackroom_57]

I'm waiting to get my GBL I want to treat my self to a peacefull death

Damn where you getting GBL from? Dark net? Is that really peaceful?

 

[vaguebluur]

Damn where you getting GBL from? Dark net? Is that really peaceful?

Yes I ended my life November last year 60 ml gave me a double cardiac arrest and I was d.o.a for 4 mins only survived due to a random welfare check...spooky shit
No pain at all

 

[Blackroom_57]

Yes I ended my life November last year 60 ml gave me a double cardiac arrest and I was d.o.a for 4 mins only survived due to a random welfare check...spooky shit
No pain at all

Holy shit. Maybe I should get some GBL lol. Currently waiting on my phenobarbital pills and antiemetics to come in the mail. Currently have SN with me as a backup.

 

[vaguebluur]

Holy shit. Maybe I should get some GBL lol. Currently waiting on my phenobarbital pills and antiemetics to come in the mail. Currently have SN with me as a backup.

Pheno is a great start but not enough, fuck sn imho. Add super strength benzos or GBL into the mix and your talking business.
1 gram of bromazolam is like 40 pounds or a 60 ml bottle of gbl 70 pounds

 

[Blackroom_57]

Pheno is a great start but not enough, fuck sn imho. Add super strength benzos or GBL into the mix and your talking business.
1 gram of bromazolam is like 40 pounds or a 60 ml bottle of gbl 70 pounds

I plan on taking the pheno and then putting a garbage bag over my head. I'll be fine. SN is gonna be shit if I have to use it but atleast it extremely effective and well documented + accessible.

 

[vaguebluur]

I plan on taking the pheno and then putting a garbage bag over my head. I'll be fine. SN is gonna be shit if I have to use it but atleast it extremely effective and well documented + accessible.

How much pheno you got bro?

How much pheno you got bro?

I was underwhelmed when I tried them my first time but my benzo tolerance is mad

 

[Blackroom_57]

How much pheno you got bro?

I was underwhelmed when I tried them my first time but my benzo tolerance is mad

Pheno is still coming in the mail but I ordered 20 grams. More than enough to kill someone's. I have zero tolerance for barbiturates or sedatives in general.