Venting Anybody else feel invisible?

[redisblue]

I feel invisible. Anytime I try to talk, people always either interrupt me, ignore me, give me dirty looks or tell me to shut up. Anytime I ask for help, people just disappear. Even physically, people walk into me all the time, even my own family do it - they're always stepping on me and act like it didn't happen, it's such a small thing but it just makes me feel like I'm not there. I'm always pushed outside of circles. I'm always the one left standing by and watching. Nobody really talks to me - being here is the first time in a long time that people have actually wanted to hear what I have to say. I've not been here very long, but you're all great. Anyways, does anybody else feel like this?

 

[absolomonisgone]

we can see you

 

[Arbin]

I feel the same thing man, no one sees me even when I'm sending in front of them.

 

[card1nal]

Yeah, I can relate. I'm really sorry you have to go through this as well. It's painful feeling like you can't be seen.

Even in my close circles, I feel like my existence is like something always in the corner of everyone's eyes, if that makes sense.

One of the only times I felt like anyone ever truly acknowledged my existence, it felt terrifying. It was during a very vulnerable moment for me, and I felt that I was being looked at rather than being looked through. I thought it would feel much better than it did, but instead I had a mental breakdown lol.

 

[redisblue]

Yeah, I can relate. I'm really sorry you have to go through this as well. It's painful feeling like you can't be seen.

Even in my close circles, I feel like my existence is like something always in the corner of everyone's eyes, if that makes sense.

One of the only times I felt like anyone ever truly acknowledged my existence, it felt terrifying. It was during a very vulnerable moment for me, and I felt that I was being looked at rather than being looked through. I thought it would feel much better than it did, but instead I had a mental breakdown lol.

I'm so sorry you've had to go through that. You deserve so much better - all of you in this thread do. Sending hugs and love :(

 

[ScottPilgram]

u said "let me be clear" and ppl took you literally :(

 

[redisblue]

u said "let me be clear" and ppl took you literally :(

Hah! This is so true, but it made me laugh, so thank you :)

 

[exhaustedanonymous]

if im in a conversation with multiple people, and i just stop talking, no one notices, they just keep going. i may as well not exist

 

[Vitya]

Since I've been alive I could feel that I am in a world I do not belong. I feel like everyone around me just wants me to disappear for good. Everytime I try to talk to family about my problem they always just tell me to brush it off and tell me to "Not take it so personally" "stop being so sensitive" "stop being so negative/pessimistic".
When I am in a group I am always the outcast. Not talking to anybody. Being in my own world. Even if I try to start conversations and try to keep them engaged by asking them questions they always just give out short answers or sometimes even pretend they do not hear me. Nobody notices when I am gone from a group or cares.
My whole life I have been surrounded by people I thought I could trust but it turned out my family wanted me gone from their house and the "friends" I had were just people I engaged with because circumstances forced me to. They never looked nor for me nor cared about me. I was there and I was not at the same time. In the real world my body exists but my soul? My soul left long ago. Now I just await death so I can finally be free from the pain of abandonment and being a burden.

 

[Hopeliss]

I know that I could disappear at any time and no one would care about me

 

[Kurushii]

When I was still in school I felt this way too. I felt invisible, like I had zero presence. People would not talk to me much and the "friends" I did make were cheap and circumstantial. I didn't have any real friends in school but the cheap ones I had were friendly enough that I didn't feel lonely either. I didn't really know what 'fake friends' were back then so maybe that helped too. Ignorance is bliss. Now I do get noticed, but I don't have any particular feelings about it.

I'm sorry to hear that you're always pushed out of circles redisblue. I find that human connection is very hard to come across now. Also I do like your profile picture.

 

[cassxtho]

I can relate. What saved me was getting into a more "prestigious" academic program, most of the people in it have been bullied so even though there is a lot of bragging the culture is different and people care about each other more. I'm sorry you feel this way, just stay strong and try to wait it out. The only thing you can do is care about and improve yourself, unfortunately we can't force other people to do it for you. I'm sorry.

 

[redisblue]

When I was still in school I felt this way too. I felt invisible, like I had zero presence. People would not talk to me much and the "friends" I did make were cheap and circumstantial. I didn't have any real friends in school but the cheap ones I had were friendly enough that I didn't feel lonely either. I didn't really know what 'fake friends' were back then so maybe that helped too. Ignorance is bliss. Now I do get noticed, but I don't have any particular feelings about it.

I'm sorry to hear that you're always pushed out of circles redisblue. I find that human connection is very hard to come across now. Also I do like your profile picture.

This is exactly what I've been going through, minus the part about getting noticed - I'm sorry that you understand how I feel :( Also thank you, I like your profile picture too!! :D

I can relate. What saved me was getting into a more "prestigious" academic program, most of the people in it have been bullied so even though there is a lot of bragging the culture is different and people care about each other more. I'm sorry you feel this way, just stay strong and try to wait it out. The only thing you can do is care about and improve yourself, unfortunately we can't force other people to do it for you. I'm sorry.

The course I'm doing is full of people who have very different interests and have always been seen as 'weird/different' which is really strange to me, I thought that when I joined the course that I could have easily made friends since we all had things in common, but turns out a lot of them are just the same as the people in high school - also I'm sorry that you can relate to how I feel :( Thank you for sharing :)

To everybody else in this thread, like I already said in the replies above, I'm sorry that you all understand - I wouldn't wish this feeling on anybody, but there's always that sense of comfort when you hear that you're not insane and not the only one who's felt like this. I'm here if any of you need to talk :)

 

[Vitya]

if im in a conversation with multiple people, and i just stop talking, no one notices, they just keep going. i may as well not exist

Same thing everytime I talk to a group. It's like you do not exist

 

[voidweller]

i feel the exact same way. ive described myself as "invisible" too, thats really what it feels like. ive never felt like i fit in any groups or communities cuz everyone just ignores me and acts like im not there. very little i say matters to anyone. this site really is the first place ive actually felt seen and heard, at least in a long time

 

[redisblue]

i feel the exact same way. ive described myself as "invisible" too, thats really what it feels like. ive never felt like i fit in any groups or communities cuz everyone just ignores me and acts like im not there. very little i say matters to anyone. this site really is the first place ive actually felt seen and heard, at least in a long time

I feel exactly the same! I'm here if you ever need anybody to talk to about anything :D

 

[voidweller]

I'm here if you ever need anybody to talk to about anything

same to you! can i dm you?

 

[_smile_]

I was going to make a post just like this, until I came across yours I feel like I keep trying to put myself out there, even here on sasu, but I am just forgotten about. I don't even understand how someone makes friends and how you get someone to like you groups and cliques really intimidate me.
I'd give you a hug if I could. You don't deserve to feel invisible or ignored or anything less than invaluable. The world sucks.

 

[redisblue]

same to you! can i dm you?

Of course you can!

I was going to make a post just like this, until I came across yours I feel like I keep trying to put myself out there, even here on sasu, but I am just forgotten about. I don't even understand how someone makes friends and how you get someone to like you groups and cliques really intimidate me.
I'd give you a hug if I could. You don't deserve to feel invisible or ignored or anything less than invaluable. The world sucks.

I get you; groups intimidate me too, it feels like everybody just fits in with each other and us people are always left feeling like we don't belong. We can be friends if you want! Feel free to message me as well if you would like :) And thank you so much, same goes for you! Sending lots of hugs and love to you and everybody else who feels the same or similar <3

 

[tvoisluga]

I feel invisible. Anytime I try to talk, people always either interrupt me, ignore me, give me dirty looks or tell me to shut up. Anytime I ask for help, people just disappear. Even physically, people walk into me all the time, even my own family do it - they're always stepping on me and act like it didn't happen, it's such a small thing but it just makes me feel like I'm not there. I'm always pushed outside of circles. I'm always the one left standing by and watching. Nobody really talks to me - being here is the first time in a long time that people have actually wanted to hear what I have to say. I've not been here very long, but you're all great. Anyways, does anybody else feel like this?

story of most of my life. people either truly just miss what you say but can be malicious too. wish i got used to it but still hurts the same it did when i was a kid. one more reason to be hyped for august(ctb date)

 

[Amidaa]

I totally understand you on this, most of the time people just pretend to listen or act that they care. but in the end it is just one ear in and other ear out.
i'm always the one in the friend group to be the last one to be notice that they gonna have a hang out or if they gonna do something together heck if i even don't ask they wouldn't even tell me anything same thing with my familie. and if i even join if just walk off or decide to go home or something they would not even notice that i'm gone nor ask any question where i go or went off. it really suck to be like this that's way i just gave up on even trying to be around anymore because it doesn't matter anyways.

 

[0000000000000]

Painfully relatable.

 

[AkaRed]

All the time. And when I compare myself to the people around me, it feels so much worse. Literal lack of any meaningful presence. Nobody actually cares or ultimately wants you around. If I were to disappear, it wouldn't affect a single soul. Thinking on that is hurtful, but at times also peaceful.
Being constantly alone and reaching out for distractions stops working after awhile, and I wonder when I'll be able to make the leap myself one day.
<3

 

[Catch-22]

I feel invisible. Anytime I try to talk, people always either interrupt me, ignore me, give me dirty looks or tell me to shut up. Anytime I ask for help, people just disappear. Even physically, people walk into me all the time, even my own family do it - they're always stepping on me and act like it didn't happen, it's such a small thing but it just makes me feel like I'm not there. I'm always pushed outside of circles. I'm always the one left standing by and watching. Nobody really talks to me - being here is the first time in a long time that people have actually wanted to hear what I have to say. I've not been here very long, but you're all great. Anyways, does anybody else feel like this?

It's been like this for me my entire life. I believe the issue is not with you it is with them. Anybody that is a good kind person would not interrupt you or or make you feel left out unfortunately there's a lot of people that are not kind in this world. I think the people that get left out are pushed around more are people that may be more introverted or have more empathy than others. It seems like people with empathy are in the minority. When people see me I think they see the words I am a doormat written on my forehead.

 

[oddetoad]

when will u people realise its all by design?

 

[PA𝖨𝑁]

I'm sorry that you're going through that,, i find it relatable :(,

i felt like a bystander my whole life, an example i recall is in a group of students when i used to talk or share project ideas they would just keep talking ignoring me and i end up looking like talking to myself so i just gave up on tryng.

I'm happy for you that people here do hear you, i think the same, met lots of good people , finding this website is a bittersweet ending 2023 for me

 

[Unattainable666]

I feel invisible. Anytime I try to talk, people always either interrupt me, ignore me, give me dirty looks or tell me to shut up. Anytime I ask for help, people just disappear. Even physically, people walk into me all the time, even my own family do it - they're always stepping on me and act like it didn't happen, it's such a small thing but it just makes me feel like I'm not there. I'm always pushed outside of circles. I'm always the one left standing by and watching. Nobody really talks to me - being here is the first time in a long time that people have actually wanted to hear what I have to say. I've not been here very long, but you're all great. Anyways, does anybody else feel like this?

OMG that is exactly how I feel as if people look at me and see nothing. Nothing I say matters; nothing I do matters. Yes, I am invisible. I am so sorry you feel that way.