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bianglala

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Jun 5, 2026
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this is kinda stupid but recently i've had this thought to try to ctb, but not to actually go ALL the way. i still wanna come back. i just want to try and see how it feels--if i regret it, if it's the right choice, and also if i can do it. has anyone ever had this thought before? has anyone tried? i tried hanging myself but i couldn't go too far and stopped myself in the middle. i kinda wanna try auto-asphyxiation till i pass out, but when i googled they kept telling me that the risk is too great to accidentally actually die. are there tips on how to actually do it properly? im curious about that feeling that you might get after you wake up from it.
 
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adamantc

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this is kinda stupid but recently i've had this thought to try to ctb, but not to actually go ALL the way. i still wanna come back. i just want to try and see how it feels--if i regret it, if it's the right choice, and also if i can do it. has anyone ever had this thought before? has anyone tried? i tried hanging myself but i couldn't go too far and stopped myself in the middle. i kinda wanna try auto-asphyxiation till i pass out, but when i googled they kept telling me that the risk is too great to accidentally actually die. are there tips on how to actually do it properly? im curious about that feeling that you might get after you wake up from it.
There are forums for this kind of stuff. I usually use a rope or my bare hands. There is a technique to it, but i'd just be especially careful to not go too far: there is a tin boundary between enjoyment and death/permanent disability.
 
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