i'm wondering this as well. the letters to my closest friends will be the hardest to write. there is a lot i want to say, but i know deep down they will understand even if i don't make it too explicit. they know how long i have been suffering in this life. i will tell them what i want them to have from my belongings. i'll tell my roommates to care for my oldest friend, my beloved cat. to my friends from the past, i will keep it short and sweet: thank them for the good memories and wish them the happy lives they deserve. and of course, to everyone but my parents, let them know that there is nothing they could have done, that this is what i want, that i am finally at peace. tell everyone i love and cherish them, and if it wasn't for them, i would have offed myself way earlier, but i simply cannot do it anymore. for my parents, because i am not a vengeful person, i will not tell them that there was, in fact, many times that they could have helped me. i will wish them the best. i'll tell them what to do with my dead body, that i do not want a funeral. that's all i can think of for now.
