Any thoughts on the other side?

[pax420]

Yes this has already been discussed but I have a different view story or a whatever you want to call it. I was already pretty much ready to ctb I had a place picked out a way to do it and time frame to accomplish it. It was pretty much perfect and I had no reservations about it. Long story short I'm in a lot of physical pain and I can't hardly breath. I'm 56 my lifetime partner died 2 years ago and I really have nothing holding me here. Except, I always had a sort of good thing with God and the other side. I was raised Catholic and taught if you take your own life you go to hell. Not my idea of perfect afterlife. I talked to a few people who said if you take your own life you must be crazy and God won't hold that against you. I was cool with being crazy and ready to go but then I overdosed on fentanyl (accidentally) and was brought back. Now I was completely dead for about 5 minutes before the revived me. There were no lights no angels no tunnel absolutely nothing. This blew my whole belief system I now doubt if God exists and once we die that's it we just cease to exist. That idea is too much for me to comprehend. Does anybody have any thoughts or similar experiences they could share with me? I still really want and need to ctb just unsure now.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm agnostic. But if we cease to exist you won't know it anyway.

 

[IdentityDoe]

Well, at the end of the day, I don't exactly believe that any belief is wrong. Whether you believe in Science or God, our understanding of the world is limited. We don't even fully know what consciousness is, so I doubt anyone has figured out what exactly happens after death. The only way to find out is to make it there, and that's something that everyone will experience. I don't believe an all powerful God would care enough to punish people infinitely for finite "crimes". He doesn't even interfere with our daily lives, otherwise he would have blown up the planet by now after seeing how many innocent people get killed in war.

 

[behindtheveil]

I believe everything we know or learn in this world is after all part of this world. Even the ideas of afterlife in the mainstream or religion are what we perceive from this end. The veil in between is strong and does not allow even a peak of the other side. So, we can only wish or conjure what lies ahead. But is it so bad?
I mean we have been doing that our entire life, not being sure of what lies ahead. And still we tread along.
Whatever it maybe, I think I will just stay with the place I like to be in and the souls I'd like to meet when I leave or ctb. The rest is up to the big guy upstairs. -- It's as if we can only deposit our requests and wishes, the rest is not in our hands. In any case, loads of love and blessings to you and everyone else reading this.

 

[pax420]

Yes this has already been discussed but I have a different view story or a whatever you want to call it. I was already pretty much ready to ctb I had a place picked out a way to do it and time frame to accomplish it. It was pretty much perfect and I had no reservations about it. Long story short I'm in a lot of physical pain and I can't hardly breath. I'm 56 my lifetime partner died 2 years ago and I really have nothing holding me here. Except, I always had a sort of good thing with God and the other side. I was raised Catholic and taught if you take your own life you go to hell. Not my idea of perfect afterlife. I talked to a few people who said if you take your own life you must be crazy and God won't hold that against you. I was cool with being crazy and ready to go but then I overdosed on fentanyl (accidentally) and was brought back. Now I was completely dead for about 5 minutes before the revived me. There were no lights no angels no tunnel absolutely nothing. This blew my whole belief system I now doubt if God exists and once we die that's it we just cease to exist. That idea is too much for me to comprehend. Does anybody have any thoughts or similar experiences they could share with me? I still really want and need to ctb just unsure now.

I tried to chat deathsweetdeath but something got lost in translation. Couldn't figure out how to chat.

 

[thatonegirl]

I think this "hateful" God that everyone insists exists just plain doesn't, even if God does exist. They use fear to control you. If God is real and truly did create us in His image, then every single thing we've ever done wrong was expected by Him and forgivable. If He's real, He already knows exactly how much you're suffering, and he understands your reasons. He will not hold it against you.

 

[bananaolympus]

I was raised catholic too but suicide doesn't give you a premium pass to hell instead you go to the purgatory or at least thats what i wss taught same for non believers, anyway when i was in critical condition i had dreams like alternate universe possibilities, i am agnostic so i keep my mind open to all possibilities, NDE vary a lot to experiences like yours of nothingness to light in a tunnel like you described, at the end of the day what matters is your brain shutting down all function 100%

 

[Rosie88]

I have my fingers crossed that it's nothing. Even hell I am not afraid of but heaven I don't want that especially. I would have to continue in a place with my family and forgive them or go back to how I was, no thank you. I don't want reincarnation or being a ghost or anything really. Just let me rest in nothing.