Any other hanging survivors out there?

[Lookingtotalk]

I tried full suspension hanging a couple of months ago, it was pretty awful i tried 5 times and kept kicking the chair away but holding on with 1 toe as i was being choked and kicked it back. Even zip tied my hands on the last try, the pain and SI I really underestimated, ended up taking a week to really get better face was congested from that vascular congestion thing, it was awful, but all the ideas to CBT seem awful, I am in a terrible spot, thought I would post, as I have not seen a thread like this in a while.

 

[jodes2]

I've tried like 20 attempts at partial but never full, cos knowing how partial went it would be a grizzly death so also SI kicks in before I'd kick the chair. I'm a pussy

 

[Lookingtotalk]

I've tried like 20 attempts at partial but never full, cos knowing how partial went it would be a grizzly death so also SI kicks in before I'd kick the chair. I'm a pussy

I had 1 pinky toe left on the chair, i just couldnt fucking do it, my back leg was already numb and the rope was choking my neck, all i had to do was like slip, and i somehow drug myself all the way back in and got out of the zip ties, SI is fucking unreal, idk how these kids like high school kids just throw up a belt a boom its done, boggles me

 

[whywere]

Yes, twice. 1st time the rope got caught up in a railing and I got frustrated and gave up and went home. The 2nd time, the cops were called on me and they had a key to my place, I live in an apartment complex and came in, grabbed me, put me up against a wall, patted me down and held my arms behind my back to the ambulance.

Walter

 

[jodes2]

I had 1 pinky toe left on the chair, i just couldnt fucking do it, my back leg was already numb and the rope was choking my neck, all i had to do was like slip, and i somehow drug myself all the way back in and got out of the zip ties, SI is fucking unreal, idk how these kids like high school kids just throw up a belt a boom its done, boggles me

Ikr

 

[Lookingtotalk]

Yes, twice. 1st time the rope got caught up in a railing and I got frustrated and gave up and went home. The 2nd time, the cops were called on me and they had a key to my place, I live in an apartment complex and came in, grabbed me, put me up against a wall, patted me down and held my arms behind my back to the ambulance.

Walter

Did someone hear you on the second try?

Ikr

"News at 5, another high schooler committs suicide with a scarf and a clothespin"

like HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS!

 

[flightless bird]

I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. Did you at some point feel like losing consciousness though? Was it gonna happen if you had just let go?

 

[whywere]

Did someone hear you on the second try?

No, for some very odd reason, my mental health clinic where I was going, got the idea to call the cops and have a welfare checkup done on me and in the cops came. They were very unprofessional, as one of the cops said something to the nature of: " well at least we do not have to clean anything up this time".

They also used way too much brute force on me. I am over 6 feet tall and built like a stick pin and the cops looked like football players and they were not nice at all.

Walter

 

[Lookingtotalk]

I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. Did you at some point feel like losing consciousness though? Was it gonna happen if you had just let go?

Oh totally, the funniest part is as i am shaking furious even with all the benzos in my setting up the rope chair height etc., the first time i put the noose on my neck, i actually slipped off the chair and was fully suspended for like 5-10 seconds and could not find my footing and the room starting turning yellow, but my body just automatically was like flailing looking for door handle or chair and found it, the entire thing was terryfying, but it was the only CTB i could even think to try after going through this site for months.

every other method was just scary and i have no access to like N or H or F etc., so here i am

No, for some very odd reason, my mental health clinic where I was going, got the idea to call the cops and have a welfare checkup done on me and in the cops came. They were very unprofessional, as one of the cops said something to the nature of: " well at least we do not have to clean anything up this time".

They also used way too much brute force on me. I am over 6 feet tall and built like a stick pin and the cops looked like football players and they were not nice at all.

Walter

They are typically aggressive

 

[SexyIncél]

Did someone hear you on the second try?

"News at 5, another high schooler committs suicide with a scarf and a clothespin"

like HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS!

I guess you only hear of the few successes, rather than the many failures?

 

[Lookingtotalk]

I guess you only hear of the few successes, rather than the many failures?

Yes, i think it distorts my view, i am clearly aware the stats are like 1 for every 20, but the tv makes it sounds so easy you know

 

[painofzed]

I tried full suspension hanging a couple of months ago, it was pretty awful i tried 5 times and kept kicking the chair away but holding on with 1 toe as i was being choked and kicked it back. Even zip tied my hands on the last try, the pain and SI I really underestimated, ended up taking a week to really get better face was congested from that vascular congestion thing, it was awful, but all the ideas to CBT seem awful, I am in a terrible spot, thought I would post, as I have not seen a thread like this in a while.

Did partial suspension with my belt and it broke after I passed out, I woke up confused as to how I was still alive with a broken belt around my neck.

 

[Lookingtotalk]

Did partial suspension with my belt and it broke after I passed out, I woke up confused as to how I was still alive with a broken belt around my neck.

The body does weird stuff after you pass out

 

[LeavingEarly]

I tried partial hanging twice but couldn't pass out. Dying is scary to me so my SI kicks in and I stand out of it.

 

[Lookingtotalk]

I tried partial hanging twice but couldn't pass out. Dying is scary to me so my SI kicks in and I stand out of it.

it definitely is scary which is why i tend to look for like quicker stuff now but still scary