Any one ever look at other people's lives and get jealous?

[Safi]

My brother is successful, has a job, friends, he even lives with them and everyone likes him. It's not like I don't have anything, I have a boyfriend and he makes me happier. But I don't have a job and I've never had any real friends. I'm so jealous of him. I love my brother with all my heart but whenever I look at him I always feel sad. This is unrelated to this topic but I also feel suicidal when I think of my imperfections. And of my incompetence. I quit school in 7th grade and pretty much forgot everything I learned. It's not like I was a good learner, that's what made me quit school in the first place, but I really wish I would have given my all back then and wouldn't have been so concerned with being singled out in class. I wish I wouldn't have been so depressed back then either, I could have concentrated on more important stuff. I wish I was someone else. My problems may not seem that big to others, but they make me want to die.

 

[Scribble Fan]

Oh boy, do I. I'd never harm them but sometimes I feel like they don't deserve their lives, they just have no idea how great they have it. I'd trade in an instant lol.

 

[Loli]

No. I don't even remember when was the last time I was jealous about something/someone. Have no bloody idea how it's even possible, long time ago I was completely opposite.

Besides everyone struggles, more or less. Someone else's life may look pecrfet on the surface. But it doesn't mean that this person is actually happy.

 

[Safi]

No. I don't even remember when was the last time I was jealous about something/someone. Have no bloody idea how it's even possible, long time ago I was completely opposite.

Besides everyone struggles, more or less. Someone else's life may look pecrfet on the surface. But it doesn't mean that this person is actually happy.

True, my brother works hard for the things he has. He's not always happy but his friends are there to support him.

 

[cornflowerblue]

I used to feel Iike this. Then I met and exceeded every standard of success but still felt like shit. Turns out jealousy was a form of hope. Who knew.

 

[Pupuce]

I don't. I dislike comparing myself to other honestly, it's not like everyone's life is similar enough to mine to be relevant, and I feel bad enough on my own to not envy anyone

 

[262653]

I get jealous to those who seem to be touch with their feelings and emotions. Who able to express themselves spontaneously, without thick and dense mental blocks. Whose instincts and reasoning go hand in hand, not away from each other. But I do not wish to be on their places because I have no idea how its going to be... I understand that some people a driven to achieve success in perpetuating life and some want to get over it... I don't think doing what I want is against the nature. Life doesn't seem to go anywhere and bodies don't just disappear in 600 seconds after death like in video games. The features I represent might not be implemented in future versions of living forms... I believe the remnants of my body will become a part of other living stuff and I have nothing to worry about, simple as that. My brain will be disintegrated enough to lose its function to interpret experiences and will fully submit to life. I hopefully get my peace and life gets to do whatever it wants to do, so everyone is satisfied... for now.

 

[Scribble Fan]

I get jealous to those who seem to be touch with their feelings and emotions. Who able to express themselves spontaneously, without thick and dense mental blocks. Whose instincts and reasoning go hand in hand, not away from each other.

Yep, I think this is what's wrong with me. I have so many conflicting emotions, instincts, thoughts, and gut feelings that it's like some perpetual multi-factioned civil war going on in here. I'm in possession of a chaotic clusterfuck of a soul. I usually have to internally smother myself to get anything done.

I'd love to be able to just breathe and do.

 

[deathenvoy]

Once I was quite successful. I was one of the best in my job, earned a lot of money, had passion. I had a girlfriend, few close friends.
And then depression kicked in and took away everything I had. I am unemployed for 2 years because I can barely leave house. I tried to comeback to job, lasted 4 days after which I've got massive panic attack and landed into hospital (for 6th time during those two years). I envy people that are not sick as I am. My potential is wasted.

 

[not_a_robot]

aww. don't feel bad. being smart really sucks too. it just makes people jealous, they do the most fucked up shit. you know how jealous you feel about your brother? that's how everybody who meets me feels. and people are *nasty* about it too. the hardest part is they all think they can scheme and connive and outsmart me, and I have to play along and let them think that, or they will just keep doing even more worse shit. Pretending to let them win doesn't help either. I can't stay in any city more than a year.

True, my brother works hard for the things he has. He's not always happy but his friends are there to support him.

I can tell you have no friends because you think their purpose is to support people. Usually people are just competing not supporting each other. They stay involved in each others lives for purposes of sabotage. If you think people treat you like shit when they don't like you, just wait til they do.
You're gonna love it. Bring a helmet.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

I'm jealous of people all the time, ecspecially my friends and cousins who are my age but vastly more successful and put together

I look at them and see what my life could have been had I not been such a fuck up and consumed by depression.

 

[Safi]

I'm jealous of people all the time, ecspecially my friends and cousins who are my age but vastly more successful and put together

I look at them and see what my life could have been had I not been such a fuck up and consumed by depression.

Same here

I can tell you have no friends because you think their purpose is to support people. Usually people are just competing not supporting each other. They stay involved in each others lives for purposes of sabotage. If you think people treat you like shit when they don't like you, just wait til they do.
You're gonna love it. Bring a helmet.

I think you look at things too grimly. My brother definitely has enemies that disguise themselves as friends but he has true friends that would never stab him in the back too. They exist, you've just never met any. They support him, not sabotage him or else they wouldn't be best friends.

 

[not_a_robot]

Same here

I think you look at things too grimly. My brother definitely has enemies that disguise themselves as friends but he has true friends that would never stab him in the back too. They exist, you've just never met any. They support him, not sabotage him or else they wouldn't be best friends.

Friends are just enemies who haven't found a compelling enough reason to stab you in the back *yet*.
But they will. Even for your "perfect" brother.

 

[Safi]

Friends are just enemies who haven't found a compelling enough reason to stab you in the back *yet*.
But they will. Even for your "perfect" brother.

I don't think so, but I'm not going to try and change your opinion. I won't be so cynical about having friends, or I'll never have any. I don't want to be a negative Nancy about people either, or else I'll hate everyone.

I don't. I dislike comparing myself to other honestly, it's not like everyone's life is similar enough to mine to be relevant, and I feel bad enough on my own to not envy anyone

That's good. :-D

 

[262653]

aww. don't feel bad. being smart really sucks too.

Oh, and something i forgot... smarts! If it has to be an emotion that would drive me to suicide (or murder) - I'd bet on envy to exceptionally intelligent people. So what if most people would hate them/you/us? I'm not commonly likable either, could as well be a smartass.

 

[JoeFailure]

Not jealous of them in a way that I wish they didn't have it...more sad that had I addressed my ADHD much earlier in life and really understood about pursuing a career to help the world, I could've had the life I now want.

But I simply didn't get it then. I'm for sure envious of the people who always "got it" but not bitter at them, just mad at myself. Like I met this woman who's a school nurse at a special school for kids with autism that are very aggressive, and she loves it. She makes good money and loves getting up and going to work every day to do something good.

I'm happy for her, she put in the work and earned it. I just wish I had "gotten it" too. I hate that your entire life can be shaped by your 20's. I'm mortified by how many people "got it" on some level and I didn't on any level.

 

[Niko]

My brother is successful, has a job, friends, he even lives with them and everyone likes him. It's not like I don't have anything, I have a boyfriend and he makes me happier. But I don't have a job and I've never had any real friends. I'm so jealous of him. I love my brother with all my heart but whenever I look at him I always feel sad. This is unrelated to this topic but I also feel suicidal when I think of my imperfections. And of my incompetence. I quit school in 7th grade and pretty much forgot everything I learned. It's not like I was a good learner, that's what made me quit school in the first place, but I really wish I would have given my all back then and wouldn't have been so concerned with being singled out in class. I wish I wouldn't have been so depressed back then either, I could have concentrated on more important stuff. I wish I was someone else. My problems may not seem that big to others, but they make me want to die.

Your problems affect you the way they affect you, no matter what. If you feel hurt by life then you have a right to your feelings, and if somebody told you "well it's not as bad as [whatever], just cheer up!" then they're being an insensitive prick.

and yeah I get jealous of other peoples lives, including people in my own family. I wish I could use that jealous energy as motivation to try and make my life better but I can't, it just beats me down further and makes me feel more worthless. If only I had some sort of drive to go out there and make something of myself, but I don't. I have nothing and can't do nothing. I'm stuck and alone and afraid and sad. It's all so sad and I hate it, I can't keep doing this.

 

[JoeFailure]

aww. don't feel bad. being smart really sucks too. it just makes people jealous, they do the most fucked up shit. you know how jealous you feel about your brother? that's how everybody who meets me feels. and people are *nasty* about it too. the hardest part is they all think they can scheme and connive and outsmart me, and I have to play along and let them think that, or they will just keep doing even more worse shit. Pretending to let them win doesn't help either. I can't stay in any city more than a year.

I can tell you have no friends because you think their purpose is to support people. Usually people are just competing not supporting each other. They stay involved in each others lives for purposes of sabotage. If you think people treat you like shit when they don't like you, just wait til they do.
You're gonna love it. Bring a helmet.

I'm sorry that these things have happened to you and that people have let you down.

There are really good people and friends in this world though. I would never sabotage or abandon a friend and I have at least a couple who wouldn't do that to me.

They may be few and far between, but they do exist.

 

[262653]

I think the purpose of your friend is to derive benefit from your friend. And the purpose of friendship lies in mutual benefit, so I can as well cal it a form of partnership.

After a loss of interest, when there is a better alternative to such partnership, an incetive to withdrawal usually follows. And if I'm not interested, why wouldn't I utilize trust, accumulated over the course of our alliance, to personal benefit? Akin to selling my share of a company while its still worth something? That's probably what stab in the back represents.

I try to have more realistic approach to friendship. I state what I value in my newfound associate, whom in turn I would ask about the benefit I provide.
Having no idea as of why your friendship exists means having no idea why would it last. Its unreliable. Ignorance is a bliss and another time its a catastrophe.

 

[Mbound]

I'm actually past that at this point. I was, for a very long time. It tortured me. But, I never had a chance to develop anything close to the kind of life people around me enjoy and I have come to calmly accept this. It's not my fault, and the circumstances were largely out of my control. Now, I am simply affirmed in my choice to ctb looking at the kinds of lives everyone around me is living. I don't feel resentment anymore. I have come to calmly accept a lot of things recently.

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

Oh of course, but then a part of me realizes that they're just as miserable on the inside as everyone else, and then I smile lol.

 

[Juggernaut]

All the time. I'm jealous of people who are really good looking, like natural good looks and I wonder, why couldn't I look I that.

I'm jealous of people who are in the occupations I want to be in, doing amazing exciting jobs

Ironically......even these people who seem so blessed have the same problems I do inside and are jealous of others themselves

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

All the time. I'm jealous of people who are really good looking, like natural good looks and I wonder, why couldn't I look I that.

I'm jealous of people who are in the occupations I want to be in, doing amazing exciting jobs

Ironically......even these people who seem so blessed have the same problems I do inside and are jealous of others themselves

Don't be jealous about the looks. Plastic surgery is at an all time high, and we don't know if they're natural or not. And at the end of the day we all end up looking the same when we pass away six feet under.

 

[andy69]

Yes

 

[Going Home]

No, I think that's a waste of time because I am very much my own person.

I ca relate to what you wrote about your problems not seeming big to others. People just don't understand and they don't want to understand.

 

[vulturecyclop]

I'm jealous of anyone who has the drive to do anything at all. To smile, to laugh, to not overthink things and be productive. Also of beautiful girls, because they have it the easiest.

 

[ExitTheDay]

My brother always seemed to be more popular and had many other friends than I did, that didn't make me jealous because I liked going home and spending time alone when he was out. Going out spending time with a lot people and partying drains me, I need to sit around with a small group of people and talk about things that expand our mind, possibly while passing a joint or bong around

 

[seekingoblivion]

Yeah I'm jealous. Sometimes I'm not but right now I am. As miserable as they can be I'm still jealous of who they are. I'm also jealous of people who overcame SI and actually ctb.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I see these happy, pretty rich and successful young people on tiktok and other social media and it fills me with so much feelings of inadequacy and self loathing. On one hand i enjoy peaking into their lives and see what it is like to be like them which brings me some entertainment but then when I go back to reality I am left with alot of dread and sadness over how I am and how my life is the polar opposite. I tell myself that their happiness is not eternal as my misery isnt either which helps little feel less bad

 

[FuneralCry]

I am only jealous of those who are free from existence. When I hear about other peoples lives, it just makes me feel empty. I just know that no matter what my circumstances are, nothing will ever make me want to live. I do not want any life, all I want is to be nothing.