Discussion Any one else who used to occasionally go to the woods or other quite places and cry and scream.

[Escapee]

Before I decided to end my life. I used to go to the woods just to cry and scream. I used to fall on the ground and cry and scream until I can't anymore. That was how I used to express my suffering and agony of my soul. But after I decided to ctb. I stopped it. I think it is natural response of suicidal person before they decided to ctb. I am curious if there is anyone else with similar experience?

 

[aitouka]

Honestly that sounds really nice. I wish I have woods around me with no people so I could scream my soul out. Then I look at the fast-moving urban city around me which I couldn't escape from, and I want to ctb again.

 

[greywings]

Yep! Not outside, but in one of the places I stayed there was a deep basement and distance between neighbors, so when no one was in the house I'd do that. I still think it would be nice to do stuff like that cause it lets off a lot of SH energy at once to just let it all out, but I live in a suburban area with not so great walls now, and I wouldn't want a neighbor hearing me. As an alternative with not a lot of the same tension-release, I sometimes sing to myself along with certain kinds of music, as loud as I can without being heard by other folks. That can be a good calming method too sometimes.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I would always take walks in the woods and cry. I'd just talk out my suffering through my tears. Being left out, made fun of, and seen as ugly wears on you after a while. It taught me to hate humans.

 

[CentreMid]

Before I decided to end my life. I used to go to the woods just to cry and scream. I used to fall on the ground and cry and scream until I can't anymore. That was how I used to express my suffering and agony of my soul. But after I decided to ctb. I stopped it. I think it is natural response of suicidal person before they decided to ctb. I am curious if there is anyone else with similar experience?

Yes, I used to do that too. Although I actually decided to use the woods to help me ctb for my first attempt because of my method (plus it's in the middle of nowhere so I'd be less likely to be found right away)

 

[leloyon]

I live in a city so I can't, though I went to a park and screamed once after an attempt.
I need to do this honestly, I constantly feel the need to scream…