Seven
Rebirth
- Jul 9, 2019
- 32
Hello this is my first time posting I decided to come here because nowhere else would let me vent. I am recently dealing with alot of things that's wearing down on my mental health. I was an internet addict for a year and still recovering to run away from a friends suicide. I felt too guilty and ran onto imageboards and discord to forget. I would eventually get on another game called vr chat and go on there constantly, I met a few people that were really cool but it all fell apart. I met some girl who said she loved me but I knew it was a lie. It turned out she would have splits often which would screw with my mind. Looked at as amazing one day a demon another day. Eventually after enough of that it started to wear down, one day it got bad and she broke it off and still to this day wants me dead I wasn't good and I'm sorry about that but it doesnt feel right. I had the only one good friend I had that cared leave me because of my mental state. My one friend could be involved in a serious grooming case and i feel guilty about that too. I should of stopped him but i didn't. So many things keep happening and i don't ha e much people there. Some of my friends are good but they are too much I got angry last night because they kept bringing up things throughout the whole night about the case joking about it and being obnoxious they apologized but still. It's like I have noone to talk to. The idea of living past 25 is excruciating, I don't think it's ever going to get better. Sorry for ranting but things are getting worse not better and it's all happening at once. I can barley function day to day, mental issues are so bad I don't know what's going on. Any of you had a bunch of bad life events that happend that scared you and started your downfall? Thanks for listening
