Any Jirai Kei here?

[Wonhun]

Never met one before. I wonder how do you attract and meet those people? In my whole fucking life I never met another BPD as nut as I am. Even though I do not expect them willing to talk to me.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I wear the fashion, but would also be considered a "lifestyle" jirai as well I suppose since I'm extremely suicidal and traumatized. When I was in Japan, someone I considered a friend who opened up to me, invited me to talk a bit about myself.

Whenever I opened up about losing lots of people and said that I was only interested in people who would be nice to me I started getting called a 地雷メンヘラ女

I think for whatever reason normal people have a sixth sense and can just tell if someone else has been through a lot, or is vulnerable.

 

[Wonhun]

Have you looked up about Borderline personality disorder, I got the same pattern and it took me 13 year to figure out what it is. Before that I have no clue about what and why it is happening only to me.

I wear the fashion, but would also be considered a "lifestyle" jirai as well I suppose since I'm extremely suicidal and traumatized. When I was in Japan, someone I considered a friend who opened up to me, invited me to talk a bit about myself.

Whenever I opened up about losing lots of people and said that I was only interested in people who would be nice to me I started getting called a 地雷メンヘラ女

I think for whatever reason normal people have a sixth sense and can just tell if someone else has been through a lot, or is vulnerable.

Probably like what you experience, everything is super good for the first 3 month, and after that, It turns to a problem for everyone after the favourite person had left me. Tbh I have no idea where can I vent my Jirai yandere psycho-ex emotional terrorist thought without drawing unwanted attention from other authority. Either they will take it as a joke, ignore, or call the cops when I actually execute it.