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Brokensaddle

Brokensaddle

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Sep 28, 2020
203
I'm trying my best, but life is cold and cruel to me tonight. I want to hold on and recover, and I know I have a decent future which I deserve to look forward to, but my SI drive is so loud in my head and in high drive right now. I'm overwhelmed by the pain today.
 
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MissAbyss

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Jul 20, 2025
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I wish you lots of strength, and I hope things look a little better for you tomorrow. 🍀
 
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Brokensaddle

Brokensaddle

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Sep 28, 2020
203
I wish you lots of strength, and I hope things look a little better for you tomorrow. 🍀
Much appreciated.

At this rate, it looks like I'm going to crush and burn. I'm just so done with life right now.
 
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MissAbyss

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Jul 20, 2025
585
Much appreciated.

At this rate, it looks like I'm going to crush and burn. I'm just so done with life right now.

I understand, that feeling is all consuming.
We are here to support you. 🧡
 
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Brokensaddle

Brokensaddle

Experienced
Sep 28, 2020
203
I understand, that feeling is all consuming.
We are here to support you. 🧡
Words can't express my gratitude to you! My abusers tried to section me, so a large part of me is scared I'll become mentally ill, have a breakdown, and end up being drugged up in hospital. I was out of town so they (hospital staff) decided not too. I feel I'm backed into a corner surrounded by darkness and pain.
 
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MissAbyss

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Jul 20, 2025
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Words can't express my gratitude to you! My abusers tried to section me, so a large part of me is scared I'll become mentally ill, have a breakdown, and end up being drugged up in hospital. I was out of town so they (hospital staff) decided not too. I feel I'm backed into a corner surrounded by darkness and pain.
That's a very sad situation. I can understand the fear to some extent, having been in a similar situation myself. The thought that others have complete control over you and can take away your freedom is terrible, of course you feel backed into a corner.

Try to find a way to regain a sense of safety within yourself, no matter what it takes. From there, you'll be able to make better choices for yourself and perhaps stand up for yourself. Try to rest as much as possible, even if it's difficult. It will help you conserve your energy, avoid feeling overwhelmed, and prevent a breakdown.

Do you like listening to music?
 
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ponderingkoala

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Oct 27, 2025
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I'm trying my best, but life is cold and cruel to me tonight. I want to hold on and recover, and I know I have a decent future which I deserve to look forward to, but my SI drive is so loud in my head and in high drive right now. I'm overwhelmed by the pain today.
Imagine yourself as a phoenix. You'll get over whatever it is. please hang on you're not alone holding it down on here
 

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