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ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
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I had a nightmare last night that has been stuck in my mind all day. Possible TW: baby involved.

In my dream, I was in the basement level of a church I went to when I was a kid. And I was in charge of watching a little boy, about a year old. Little blonde kid. Somehow he got into some kind of chemical, and he started puking like a fountain. It was this pink foamy liquid and there was so much of it. I was trying to get him facedown so he didn't choke on it but he was squirming and shaking and kicking me.

The worst part was that the room was filled with adults who were just watching this happen. No one would help me. I felt so helpless and panicked. I woke up covered in sweat, it was awful.

I have no kids and I didn't recognize the little boy as someone I knew. I knew some of the adults though, people from my childhood like my old pastor and her kids. Very odd. Any ideas?
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

Friends with Aera23
Apr 10, 2025
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could be faint memories of mistrust, combined with knowledge of SN from here
 
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ThatRussianDude

ThatRussianDude

**** yeah, give it to me this is Heaven.
Dec 16, 2024
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Maybe that boy was you... Maybe the dream is telling you that you should not expect others to help you.
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Warlock
Oct 13, 2019
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Interesting theory. Inner child that it's on you to fix, no-one else? But the child is resistant at every turn. And your inner parent/adult is struggling to save it. But it's vital they do, because no-one else will help.
 
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ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
73
could be faint memories of mistrust, combined with knowledge of SN from here
I was thinking the SN research might have something to do with it...
Interesting theory. Inner child that it's on you to fix, no-one else? But the child is resistant at every turn. And your inner parent/adult is struggling to save it. But it's vital they do, because no-one else will help.
This almost made me cry. Wow
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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I just love when I dream and can remember it. I believe our dreams always have a message that we need to hear.
I think in your dream, you are the baby! It seems like the baby drinking the poisonous concoction is a representative of your life but not in a sense of a drink, but encounters and events. Dreams are tricky. I think whatever you have endured a lot of people in your life has been aware of it and did nothing to help you, like the dream you looked around and seen a lot of familiar faces and they couldn't help you, or was unable to. The church is unique so I wonder did something happen to you in the church? The church could represent an actual building or maybe interpreted as a place of safety, spiritual cleansing, a reminder that a higher power is with you on your journey and has never left you.

I think you should keep a dream diary and as soon as you wake up write your dream down before you forget it. I'm one that believes we have so many pivitol moments in life and signs to help guide us. Unfortunately, our dreams are those sogns are not always crystal clear, but their is always a meaning.
 
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