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No it doesn't because I am already living in hell. Also the Bible says that Salvation is by grace, not by works
I have been taught so but my personal interpretation is different
What a lovely testimonyI'm a newish Christian. I was brought up without faith as my father was very strict and hated all religions. My mother was a lapsed Catholic. I was always agnostic, almost went to Eastern religions and spirituality. My issue is at my church they are anti mental health treatment. So I feel I'm almost betraying them by not disclosing I'm on Fluoxetine etc. Problem is no matter how much worship music or listening to the bible verses I couldn't break through the deep sadness. I'm not a very good Christian and haven't even had my baptism yet. I desperately want to be saved. I honestly don't understand God sometimes. This is his plan for me? I even had an exorcism performed on me (holy water and all). I am not doubting my friends testimonies, its just I struggle as someone who was brought up with a different mindset. And being brought up in two different cultures was a bit alienating (never truly fit). I wanted to end my life for a long long time. And faith was a good part of why I didn't - mainly mum's side of the family and her friends. It put the seed in my head. My problem is my ideation hasn't gone away since plunging myself into church. It's actually got stronger. December I almost attempted. I stayed at my friends house while it was at its peak. I'm so confused. I'm not pro life or pro death . It's just not fair that people suffer so much with no escape. I'm just here in my reality trying to make sense of everything. I honestly thought I'd feel better going to church but it's kind of pressure sometimes. I can't get up in front of everybody and give my testimony as it's not quite happened yet. My friends are lovely though. I have been a bit distant recently all these thoughts about ctb. I'm interested in any perspectives around life/death, ctb, spirituality etc. Christianity I fell into as it was the most familiar and I felt peace around my friends. Also I kept interacting randomly with different Christians (in times when I was in a state).
It's very nice to meet you @saturn1402
I also got much closer to faith very recently. Thankfully my church is very open to mental health issues… that's actually were I have been feeling heard the most regarding my depression. 
same here
