sugarb
long time sunshine
- Jun 14, 2024
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Reasons for wanting it aside, my thought process for actually killing myself is simply "I won't have to deal with anything once I'm dead."
And for the life of me (literally, lol) I cannot think of a single thing that refutes that.
Ignoring the possibility of a negative afterlife (we all die eventually so if there's an inescapable one it doesn't matter + there's as much empirical evidence for posthumous punishment of committing suicide as there is posthumous punishment of eating chicken or literally anything else), it can be assumed that bad things (pain, hunger, fear, shame, etc) will be removed upon death.
So, unless I'm mistaken, the only logical nonreligious reason for continuing to live is simply wanting to.
And the reasoning behind that, I think, can be split into 1. Really enjoying life and/or FOMO on future enjoyment 2. Obligation and/or sense of duty
I don't have a FOMO on future enjoyment in life, I don't enjoy life that much, and I don't have any major obligation/sense of duty, so those don't apply.
I could possibly create a scenario where I enjoy life more / I feel more FOMO / I have a sense of duty to live (if I had a kid, for example, I don't think I could kill myself until they were an adult), but there's no real reason to do that when, as stated previously, none of it matters once you die.
and fundamentally I don't consider "no more possibility of good things happening" as truly comparable to "no more possibility of bad things happening"; for me at least, good things are really only so good but the amount of bad that can happen or is happening to me is comparatively larger (by a decent amount). A 10/10 day just doesn't make up for a 1/10 day in my experience. But I don't think I've ever had a day so good it would outweigh an average bad 3-4/10 day, so maybe I've just never had a 10/10 day
But anyway- is there any kind of argument against this? it's an extremely difficult/impossible thing to logic against in my mind but I was thinking maybe others could think of something. If there was a convincing argument I might consider not killing myself
And for the life of me (literally, lol) I cannot think of a single thing that refutes that.
Ignoring the possibility of a negative afterlife (we all die eventually so if there's an inescapable one it doesn't matter + there's as much empirical evidence for posthumous punishment of committing suicide as there is posthumous punishment of eating chicken or literally anything else), it can be assumed that bad things (pain, hunger, fear, shame, etc) will be removed upon death.
So, unless I'm mistaken, the only logical nonreligious reason for continuing to live is simply wanting to.
And the reasoning behind that, I think, can be split into 1. Really enjoying life and/or FOMO on future enjoyment 2. Obligation and/or sense of duty
I don't have a FOMO on future enjoyment in life, I don't enjoy life that much, and I don't have any major obligation/sense of duty, so those don't apply.
I could possibly create a scenario where I enjoy life more / I feel more FOMO / I have a sense of duty to live (if I had a kid, for example, I don't think I could kill myself until they were an adult), but there's no real reason to do that when, as stated previously, none of it matters once you die.
and fundamentally I don't consider "no more possibility of good things happening" as truly comparable to "no more possibility of bad things happening"; for me at least, good things are really only so good but the amount of bad that can happen or is happening to me is comparatively larger (by a decent amount). A 10/10 day just doesn't make up for a 1/10 day in my experience. But I don't think I've ever had a day so good it would outweigh an average bad 3-4/10 day, so maybe I've just never had a 10/10 day
But anyway- is there any kind of argument against this? it's an extremely difficult/impossible thing to logic against in my mind but I was thinking maybe others could think of something. If there was a convincing argument I might consider not killing myself
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