I must ask though. If it worked as panacea for you then how come you're here? Or is your presence here unrelated to anxiety issue?
I've found testosterone here, thanks to this site, barely 16 or 17 weeks ago. I went through the nitrogen attempt and failed. I went through various flights and trips to find N.
I've came here cause I wanted to die. Im still here because I'm thankful and also to share my experience.
Plus I'm only 17 weeks away since I said I might ctb soon with my N, I had 20 years of depression , mental issues a d discomfort, it would be ridiculous that 17 good weeks overcome 20 years of depression and 3 suicide attempts.
The most important reason of why I'm still here , its I've found a solution here, but if it results in a downward spiral i can still ctb with my N. I won't tolerate going back to the way I felt before testosterone and dianabol. I rather ctb than go back.
Plus , besides all of these, being here, I see it myself as therapeutic, because,
I've been suicidal for so long, even said goodbye to my mother and brother on several occasions , I had therapy for years and years, being here it's just a tiny space for me to be who I've been and who am I now.
I like to be conscious about who I am, I dont want to go out living forgetting theres people like us, like you, who I was like some weeks ago, like me.
I can't go out living forgetting about that theres people feeling bad, theres probably another me somewhere.... if 1 person identifies him/herself with me and benefits, Great! It was worth it , if not, its therapeutic, either way, I'm okay with it.
But most of all, I like it here.