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okkkk

okkkk

just ignore me3
Jun 28, 2019
97
my anxiety has me in a headlock. walking through this world is a fruitless effort. anything i try to do is handicapped by a rush of pure fear. I am completely crippled by it.

if you're too afraid to connect with people, you're going to be alone forever.

after this you are going to be alone, you have no where to be.

everyone can see how awkward and nervous you are. You look like a fucking idiot.

What you're afraid of is invisible. you are mentally ill. no one is trying to harm you. yet your tongue is nailed to the bottom of your mouth.

being able to communicate confidently is imperative to getting anywhere in life and it is the exact thing you lack.

you will fail.

you will be alone forever.

does anyone have any info on any substances legal or illegal that can curb my chronic anxiety? I simply refuse to live this way.
 
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Rollo

Rollo

No pasaran
Aug 13, 2018
461
my anxiety has me in a headlock. walking through this world is a fruitless effort. anything i try to do is handicapped by a rush of pure fear. I am completely crippled by it.

if you're too afraid to connect with people, you're going to be alone forever.

after this you are going to be alone, you have no where to be.

everyone can see how awkward and nervous you are. You look like a fucking idiot.

What you're afraid of is invisible. you are mentally ill. no one is trying to harm you. yet your tongue is nailed to the bottom of your mouth.

being able to communicate confidently is imperative to getting anywhere in life and it is the exact thing you lack.

you will fail.

you will be alone forever.

does anyone have any info on any substances legal or illegal that can curb my chronic anxiety? I simply refuse to live this way.

Most such substances are well known. Xanax is a most common one. Lexapro is another one. These are targetting symptoms, still maybe it's what you're looking for. Same pros and cons as with using anti-depressants. Alcohol have well-known inhibition reducing (including anxiety) short-term properties, although it's hardly suitable as medicine. Pot and psychedelics can aide long term spiritual benefit, although their immediate effect can be intensification of anxiety. Still some say pot straight out reduces their anxiety. Never was a case for me, and I smoked my share of trees and still is smoker. For me pot always increases anxiety, just like it amplifies everything else. But because it throws anxiety in your face, you may realise on a more profound level what and where the problem is. Which may lead to spiritual progress. It helped me in this manner. Although it would still be up for sober you to do the work, the way I see it you can't really smoke your way out of anxiety issue.

Then again you can go spiritual path without aide of pot and psychedelics either.
 
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eve2004

DEAD YESTERDAY
Aug 17, 2019
577
Of all the benzos I've tried, klonopin made me the most uninhibited... so much so that I told my therapist some things I had not meant to say. When I take high doses at night for a few days, I lose the filter between my brain and my mouth and I just spill out whatever opinion I have, or at least I need to really focus on not saying it... Klonopin has a longer half-life than say ativan so it gets me to sleep, and the anti anxiety effects continue to work the next day, but no drowsiness.

Its no miracle cure, I still have constant CTB thoughts but it makes a tiny difference. I've mixed it with alcohol and/or THC edibles and I remembered nothing that week but went through it as usual. Remembering nothing is nearly as good as curing the anxiety, from my experience! Hahaha.
 
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your pathologist

your pathologist

¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Sep 5, 2018
519
My anti anxiety meds make me super tired and fatigued and fighting sleep all day...
 
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mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,091
Klonopin (AKA Rivotril) is what I'm using, although I'm weaning off. It's good because it lasts a long time. The withdrawal syndrome is hellish. Not something you want to cold turkey. I also take Prozac, not sure if that's helping or not. I'm able to leave the house at least. Not completely agoraphobic. Do you have a psychiatrist or a GP you can talk to?
 
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WilliamKline

Flâneur
Sep 16, 2019
135
my anxiety has me in a headlock. walking through this world is a fruitless effort. anything i try to do is handicapped by a rush of pure fear. I am completely crippled by it.

if you're too afraid to connect with people, you're going to be alone forever.

after this you are going to be alone, you have no where to be.

everyone can see how awkward and nervous you are. You look like a fucking idiot.

What you're afraid of is invisible. you are mentally ill. no one is trying to harm you. yet your tongue is nailed to the bottom of your mouth.

being able to communicate confidently is imperative to getting anywhere in life and it is the exact thing you lack.

you will fail.

you will be alone forever.

does anyone have any info on any substances legal or illegal that can curb my chronic anxiety? I simply refuse to live this way.

Oops named an illegal substance, I see my message is awaiting moderator approval. I'll be a bit more cryptic: try some Special K if you can find it, if you don't know what it is just google for the urban dictionary definition ;) It can be addictive but it's helped me incredibly at times
 
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okkkk

okkkk

just ignore me3
Jun 28, 2019
97
Oops named an illegal substance, I see my message is awaiting moderator approval. I'll be a bit more cryptic: try some Special K if you can find it, if you don't know what it is just google for the urban dictionary definition ;) It can be addictive but it's helped me incredibly at times
Ill ask my guy if he knows where to get K. I bet you already know some doctors use it for depression inject intravenously. Though that isnt covered by any insurance yet. If I could afford it I would definitely do it with a doctor in the room.
 
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Sweet emotion

Sweet emotion

Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
1,325
my anxiety has me in a headlock. walking through this world is a fruitless effort. anything i try to do is handicapped by a rush of pure fear. I am completely crippled by it.

if you're too afraid to connect with people, you're going to be alone forever.

after this you are going to be alone, you have no where to be.

everyone can see how awkward and nervous you are. You look like a fucking idiot.

What you're afraid of is invisible. you are mentally ill. no one is trying to harm you. yet your tongue is nailed to the bottom of your mouth.

being able to communicate confidently is imperative to getting anywhere in life and it is the exact thing you lack.

you will fail.

you will be alone forever.

does anyone have any info on any substances legal or illegal that can curb my chronic anxiety? I simply refuse to live this way.
Have you seen a psychiatrist ans a therapist? They can really help you get your anxiety under control. You gave to find a therapist that really knows what they're doing and one you connect with. One that can give you great tools to cope with the anxiety. The shrink might prescribe you some xanax or Valium. But with the way the FDA and the CDC are cracking down on doctors for giving out benzos you'd have to see. You should definitely see a therapist because it's not something you can do alone. I'm sure the doctor would out you on a medication for severe anxiety as well. They are the people that know how to handle this. You'll get 30 different opinions on here and they are probably all wrong. Go see a psychiatrist and a therapist.
 
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woxihuanni

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Aug 19, 2019
3,299
Human flesh. It works wonders making brain happy.
 
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N00SE_MAN1A

Member
Dec 10, 2018
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If you visit a soctor then they will not just orescribe you anti anxiety medication, but the CORRECT one for you so I strongly advise it.
 
Dartz

Dartz

Give Me The Dirt
Jun 29, 2018
613
Well if you're down for illegal substances, then microdosing LSD, cocaine, mdma and ketamine have helped my anxiety. Xanax has helped at times too, valium is pretty good as well. Weak-low-dose prescription drugs don't do shit for me but to each his own.
 
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Little Mook

Little Mook

Member
Oct 20, 2019
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I had some success with Pregabalin.
It made me constantly hungry ( weight gain made me come off it) but took away all apprehension. I felt quite disconnected which wasn't nice , but the anxiety definitely diminished.
 
GinaIsReady

GinaIsReady

Exit Strategist
Mar 29, 2019
995
In the last year I learned that a lot of my anxiety was coming from old, no longer useful flight-or-flight responses that my body was still producing as a response to old difficult situations or trauma and has no relevance whatsoever in the here and now. Often times, when my anxiety kicks up, I recognize it as an old habit my body has and it peters out very quickly. Not all of my anxiety falls under this category but I would say a good 70%.
 
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Slaanesh

Slaanesh

Memento mori
Oct 23, 2019
51
Been on a 100 milligrams of Sertraline for a while now it doesn't seem to help my anxiety/panic attacks at all honestly although it does lessen my depression a bit.
With anti-anxiety meds I think it's just a case of trying loads of different types out until you find one that works. Most aren't lucky enough to be able to afford that though (me included).
 
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WelcomingPain

Member
Oct 21, 2019
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Been on a 100 milligrams of Sertraline for a while now it doesn't seem to help my anxiety/panic attacks at all honestly although it does lessen my depression a bit.
With anti-anxiety meds I think it's just a case of trying loads of different types out until you find one that works. Most aren't lucky enough to be able to afford that though (me included).
I'm on Sertraline as well. Currently 200 milligrams. Before being on this medication, I would have crippling nightmares and wake up screaming. Since I started taking Sertraline, those nightmares have stopped, but I still get anxious around other people and have horrible thoughts such as "Everyone hates you. You are a failure. You'll never be good enough. Nobody loves you" etc. I think what Sertraline is supposed to do, is to curb the absolute worst of your anxiety, so that you can learn to deal with the rest of it on your own. Yes, I still get terrible panic attacks, but I know not everything is solved with medicine. You do need to learn coping techniques and strategies. I know it's easier said than done, but it's possible.
 
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SadGirl

SadGirl

Specialist
Mar 24, 2019
327
I was just like you, I never left home, and when I left, I couldn't talk to anyone, it was horrible, not knowing how to communicate, socializing, I still don't really like going out to crowded places. But what made me change a bit was getting out of the comfort zone and out. This if you have the strength. Seek a doctor, therapist, he will help.
 
Rollo

Rollo

No pasaran
Aug 13, 2018
461
In the last year I learned that a lot of my anxiety was coming from old, no longer useful flight-or-flight responses that my body was still producing as a response to old difficult situations or trauma and has no relevance whatsoever in the here and now. Often times, when my anxiety kicks up, I recognize it as an old habit my body has and it peters out very quickly. Not all of my anxiety falls under this category but I would say a good 70%.

Out of curiousity - can you give me one example of such an anxiety response that was once useful to you but is no longer?
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I've tried everything during 20 years of treatment, xanax, prozac , almost everything, except wellbutrin, nothing really worked, yeah Rivotril, and other benzos did masked my symptoms but was never able to say I'm great.
Until I met testosterone, dianabol, and hormones with a hormone specialist, an endocrinologist. The doctor told me I wouldn't believe the amount of people that go through psychiatrists and psychologists when their issue is hormones, but it seems to be in the mind, but it's not.

Just my two cents :*
 
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Rollo

Rollo

No pasaran
Aug 13, 2018
461
I've tried everything during 20 years of treatment, xanax, prozac , almost everything, except wellbutrin, nothing really worked, yeah Rivotril, and other benzos did masked my symptoms but was never able to say I'm great.
Until I met testosterone, dianabol, and hormones with a hormone specialist, an endocrinologist. The doctor told me I wouldn't believe the amount of people that go through psychiatrists and psychologists when their issue is hormones, but it seems to be in the mind, but it's not.

Just my two cents :*

Yeah I heard about testosterone as a remedy. In Russia there's one guy who's a big proponent of testosterone as a cure for being anxious, weak, beta etc. As he puts it - it's a panacea for a man to become a man.

I would say the anxiety issue is in the mind by definition cause fear is a phenomenon of the mind, so it's deasease is in the mind as well. It's just you're saying the issue is gone as a result of increasing your testosterone levels and other hormone alterations.
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
CBD oil helps me. Definitely worth a try x
 
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Shamana

Warlock
May 31, 2019
716
Potent CBD Oil would be my first choice. Start out with the medications with the smallest risks. L-theanine also works for some. SSRI's imo mainly end up blunting your emotions as well as your sexuality and sexual function. I find most prescribtion psyc meds do that.

I would recommend asking for advice here.

 
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*KNAZ*

The only way out is through
Oct 23, 2019
210
My doctor put me on Gabapentin and it has worked wonders for my anxiety. Probably reduced my baseline anxiety by 95% and helps with acute anxiety. I still have some breakthrough but during those times when I'm stressed out over external stuff, I can adjust my dose by 100-200mg and it seems to help.

edit: I still keep 1mg of Ativan in a pill case with me at all times just in case. I still take Ativan a couple of times a week but new doc doesn't want to give me a full refill. Maybe only 10 pills a month or less. So docs are getting stingy with benzos probably because Xanax is becoming so widely abused.
 
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Throwawaysoul

Throwawaysoul

Mage
May 14, 2018
567
My doctor put me on Gabapentin and it has worked wonders for my anxiety. Probably reduced my baseline anxiety by 95% and helps with acute anxiety. I still have some breakthrough but during those times when I'm stressed out over external stuff, I can adjust my dose by 100-200mg and it seems to help.

I'm trying to quit gabapentin after 7 years. It helped at first. But I think it causes some of my SI and fucks me cognitively.
 
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*KNAZ*

The only way out is through
Oct 23, 2019
210
I'm trying to quit gabapentin after 7 years. It helped at first. But I think it causes some of my SI and fucks me cognitively.
I'm gonna have to watch out for that. Been on it for less than a year. I take 400mg twice daily. So not a super heavy dose, but may explain the times I feel mentally slower. Will ask doc about it next time I'm in. I take 300mg of lamotragine and just started 40 mg of latuda. I'm curious about ketamine infusions but a lot of money to come up with out of pocket.

SI = suicidal ideation or survival instinct?
 
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Throwawaysoul

Mage
May 14, 2018
567
I'm gonna have to watch out for that. Been on it for less than a year. I take 400mg twice daily. So not a super heavy dose, but may explain the times I feel mentally slower. Will ask doc about it next time I'm in. I take 300mg of lamotragine and just started 40 mg of latuda. I'm curious about ketamine infusions but a lot of money to come up with out of pocket.

SI = suicidal ideation or survival instinct?


Suicidal ideation. It definitely got worse over the last 7 years. Might just be a coincidence.

The highest dose was 600mg three times a day. Now I'm down to 300mg once a day.

IMO I think they might be over prescribing gabapentin.

Hows lamotragine? The doctor wrote me a script for it but I refuse to take it until I'm off gabapentin and I'm worried about the "deadly rash" I keep reading about.
 
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Rdc

Student
Aug 24, 2019
150
I know anxiety sucks but please don't take any benzo and if you absolutely have to don't take them longer than for a few days. I took klonopin for 16 years and initially it worked great. Eventually the ant-anxiety effects werent as effective and I started suffering from interdose withdrawal. It was pure hell getting off them and my anxiety came back ten times worse getting off them. The withdrawal symptoms (increased anxiety, insomnia, fatigue, brain fog, headaches, burning skin, etc.) will make you wish you were dead. Check out BenzoBuddies.org and see how many people have been damaged by these drugs. I lost my job, marriage and sanity due to this "prescribed" drug. I am also suffering from cognitive difficulties and have trouble thinking and remembering things. I've also been on Paxil and lexapro (Ssri antidepressants) and while they weren't as effective for anxiety they were easy to quit without any withdrawal symptoms.
 
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*KNAZ*

The only way out is through
Oct 23, 2019
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Suicidal ideation. It definitely got worse over the last 7 years. Might just be a coincidence.

The highest dose was 600mg three times a day. Now I'm down to 300mg once a day.

IMO I think they might be over prescribing gabapentin.

Hows lamotragine? The doctor wrote me a script for it but I refuse to take it until I'm off gabapentin and I'm worried about the "deadly rash" I keep reading about.
Never had the deadly rash. The key is to increase dosage gradually rather than starting 300mg all at once. I went up 25mg per week until I was at 300mg. It actually helped stabilize my mood but doctor took me of cymbalta which I was also taking and was going to try a diff med when I lost my job and insurance. I had state insurance as a safety net but I didn't get in to see a new doc until I got a new job and insurance again. She is the one who started me on latuda. Waiting to see how that is going to work. If not then I'm looking at ECT and ketamine infusions. Or just throwing in the towel and CTB.
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I know anxiety sucks but please don't take any benzo and if you absolutely have to don't take them longer than for a few days. I took klonopin for 16 years and initially it worked great. Eventually the ant-anxiety effects werent as effective and I started suffering from interdose withdrawal. It was pure hell getting off them and my anxiety came back ten times worse getting off them. The withdrawal symptoms (increased anxiety, insomnia, fatigue, brain fog, headaches, burning skin, etc.) will make you wish you were dead. Check out BenzoBuddies.org and see how many people have been damaged by these drugs. I lost my job, marriage and sanity due to this "prescribed" drug. I am also suffering from cognitive difficulties and have trouble thinking and remembering things. I've also been on Paxil and lexapro (Ssri antidepressants) and while they weren't as effective for anxiety they were easy to quit without any withdrawal symptoms.
Thank you. I'm mostly off of the Ativan. I take it twice a week now compared to daily.
I know anxiety sucks but please don't take any benzo and if you absolutely have to don't take them longer than for a few days. I took klonopin for 16 years and initially it worked great. Eventually the ant-anxiety effects werent as effective and I started suffering from interdose withdrawal. It was pure hell getting off them and my anxiety came back ten times worse getting off them. The withdrawal symptoms (increased anxiety, insomnia, fatigue, brain fog, headaches, burning skin, etc.) will make you wish you were dead. Check out BenzoBuddies.org and see how many people have been damaged by these drugs. I lost my job, marriage and sanity due to this "prescribed" drug. I am also suffering from cognitive difficulties and have trouble thinking and remembering things. I've also been on Paxil and lexapro (Ssri antidepressants) and while they weren't as effective for anxiety they were easy to quit without any withdrawal symptoms.
Thank you. I'm mostly off the Ativan. I take it about twice a week compared to daily.
 
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GinaIsReady

GinaIsReady

Exit Strategist
Mar 29, 2019
995
Been on a 100 milligrams of Sertraline for a while now it doesn't seem to help my anxiety/panic attacks at all honestly although it does lessen my depression a bit.
With anti-anxiety meds I think it's just a case of trying loads of different types out until you find one that works. Most aren't lucky enough to be able to afford that though (me included).
Buspar is an anti-anxiety med that has been around for a long time. It quiets my anxiety without giving me a buzz or impairing me. It's cheap too.