Another thread on SI

[StateOfMind]

Once I made a mega-thread on Survival Instinct. But people are not using the search function so I've given up on that.

@Burzolog had an interesting idea of how SI can be overcome in another thread.
"I've noticed that it helps to deny myself the expression that others would observe (like text, or art). Taking toxic levels of social media helps. Keeping things to myself helps. Talking with understanding people doesn't help, but strangers are fine.

Emotions, bottling emotions. Think of a neuron firing when voltage, currency or whatever, passes a certain threshold. Emotions motivate for changes. Piled up emotions motivate for radical changes. I'm probably doing myself a disservice by writing this message, but whatever."

What are your thoughts on this, any other ideas?
Cheers!

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Embarrass yourself in public, shame yourself to family and friends, spend all your money on drugs, hookers and (especially) gambling. If you're already broke commit some lame, petty crimes that just demonstrate how pathetic you are.

Or else maybe decide that you're not quite ready.

 

[StateOfMind]

Embarrass yourself in public, shame yourself to family and friends, spend all your money on drugs, hookers and (especially) gambling. If you're already broke commit some lame, petty crimes that just demonstrate how pathetic you are.

That's another interesting idea lol

The "not quite ready" rhetoric is not helping in my case, there is a reason why I signed up to a suicide forum and that reason isn't companionship or to be told that I'm not ready. I'm almost 35 years of age and made a list of about 50 reasons why I wan to die.

Another thing that is not immediately apparent in my case is that I'm subjected to intense mind-games and gaslighting by police, family and "friends".

Just waiting to die at this stage, got a solid plan just SI and the mind-games holding me back.

 

[262653]

Oh, come on. I don't think it's that good of an idea, at least not as a generalized advice. I was just exploring. I also feel it's a bit out of context.

I also mentioned that (before making attempts) I didn't consciously choose my triggers, but accidentally stumbled upon them. Think of a field. Then of the same field filled with landmines. Once I know there is danger I will be treading very carefully.

Now that I'm recognizing my triggers, I avoid SM and avoid talking with strangers about suicide.

Also, if there is anything like bottling emotions intentionally, it could be very similar to suicide by dehydration. There would be a temptation to find an emotional outlet in the same way there would be a temptation to take a sip of water.

Basically knowing the triggers that might push you over the edge might be enough to deter you from confronting the triggers. I think I also mentioned that before. Knowledge here works in favor of survival.

Oh, I know! Imagine this: you go on a gold hunt with someone twice your size, someone who could beat the shit out of you without breaking a sweat. You also know that this big person cares first and foremost about personal interest. So you go out and, through a troublesome and tedious process, discover a handful chunk of gold. You're both happy about the finding, but wait! How are you going to split your reward? Simple, the big guy/girl gets the gold, and you get to keep your guts! End of the fucking story.

See, if you discover your triggers, who gets to use them? Whoever is more powerful.

 

[eternaltroubador]

My advice would be to get very drunk. That's my plan to overcome SI personally, at least.

 

[Soulless Angel]

When I over came my SI, I simply put myself in the darkess place in my mind, I reminded my self over and over why I was there, then my brain kicked in, it went into over drive of the self loathing, pain full memories, a future that held nothing but pain and fear, reminding myself I was worthless, like was pointless,
Bam goodbye SI, as I stood on the edge of the bridge, I felt nothing but pure freedom.

 

[StateOfMind]

My advice would be to get very drunk. That's my plan to overcome SI personally, at least.

That could be part of the equation. Problem with that is if I get too drunk I no longer want to ctb because then I'm actually happy lol.

When I over came my SI, I simply put myself in the darkess place in my mind, I reminded my self over and over why I was there, then my brain kicked in, it went into over drive of the self loathing, pain full memories, a future that held nothing but pain and fear, reminding myself I was worthless, like was pointless,
Bam goodbye SI, as I stood on the edge of the bridge, I felt nothing but pure freedom.

This sounds good. Did you survive a ctb attempt?

 

[Soulless Angel]

That could be part of the equation. Problem with that is if I get too drunk I no longer want to ctb because then I'm actually happy lol.

This sounds good. Did you survive a ctb attempt?

Nah fuckers pulled me from the bridge, you can read it here, went back to same bridge a few months ago (didn't intend to do anything just wanted to be there) and again no SI, but I couldn't be assed to do anything as it was middle of the day

Becoming friends with my demons.

Monday 14th October, I decided to force myself into going outside my safe zone, dearly wanting to see a friend, who never comes to my home, I decided to push myself too far. Leaving the home, going…

peacefullyerratic.com

 

[NegativeSymptoms]

Benzos help my SI.

 

[StateOfMind]

Benzos help my SI.

I have access to anti-psychotics but they are like a wild card.

 

[Konjac]

My advice would be to get very drunk. That's my plan to overcome SI personally, at least.

This. When you're in the right state of mind, alcohol is pretty much a foolproof way to get past SI.

Unfortunately I'm planning on taking SN which would likely clash with alcohol... considering just giving it a shot anyways tbh.