Another horrible failed attempt

[Jamesun]

Well, I really don't know what to do, no matter how hard I try, I can't kill myself, I feel horrible, ignored like a faggot incapable of dying, I think I'm losing control in my life.
I don't know what's more horrible to live feeling like shit or not being able to kill myself. I think I'm out of options, I don't know what to do with my life, it's so difficult and horrible, I just wish everything would change.

 

[MrDarkness]

ive failed 20 times partial and full suspension, your not awful for failing or anything, life is hard its always been hard, sometimes you just gotta fight with the cards your given

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Don't feel bad. Suicide is so incredibly difficult.

I just wish everything would change.

Obviously you still have the wish that thing would change to a better life for you, that's also a long and hard way. I wish you all the best whatever you decide to do.

Life is hard and dying is even harder.

 

[saddavyd]

I can imagine how hard this must be for you and I hope you eventually find the peace you are looking for.

Change can only happen when you are still alive and probably will. If you want it to.

My wife used to call our beautiful son jamesun.

 

[Meditation guide]

Well, I really don't know what to do, no matter how hard I try, I can't kill myself, I feel horrible, ignored like a faggot incapable of dying, I think I'm losing control in my life.
I don't know what's more horrible to live feeling like shit or not being able to kill myself. I think I'm out of options, I don't know what to do with my life, it's so difficult and horrible, I just wish everything would change.

Sorry you failed, do you mind saying what method you tried?

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so inhumane how it's so unnecessarily difficult to die, I hate how we cannot just easily leave this existence in peace whenever we wish to. But anyway best wishes, it must be really dreadful being in that situation.

 

[Jamesun]

Sorry you failed, do you mind saying what method you tried?

Partial suspension

 

[ae300]

ive failed 20 times partial and full suspension

20 times? how did that happen? failed by technical problems? rope broke, discovered and cut down ...? or mentally not ready?

 

[BlazingBob]

I was planning on partial, then thought about nitro but now I'm convinced a shotgun is the best for me. I can get one for less than $200. Very terrifying but what's more scary is living the rest of my life like this. I can't afford to fail. I have zero safety net and nowhere to turn. All alone in this big universe. I only hope the next life is better than this one because this one has pretty much sucked.

 

[singularity3]

ive failed 20 times partial and full suspension, your not awful for failing or anything, life is hard its always been hard, sometimes you just gotta fight with the cards your given

How did you fail full suspension? 20 times? really?

 

[MrDarkness]

How did you fail full suspension? 20 times? really?

partial, 19 times, full 1

 

[crxssedho3]

Well, I really don't know what to do, no matter how hard I try, I can't kill myself, I feel horrible, ignored like a faggot incapable of dying, I think I'm losing control in my life.
I don't know what's more horrible to live feeling like shit or not being able to kill myself. I think I'm out of options, I don't know what to do with my life, it's so difficult and horrible, I just wish everything would change.

I feel for you. It's not your fault we have no resources to help us. We're forced to find these methods to ctb alone. I hope you find what you're looking for.

 

[haibane]

Its horrible how hard we have to try to find peace cause this pro-life society enjoy seeing us suffer, desperately trying to find something we should have the right to have

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

There are many people who chicken out every time they try to kill themselves. Death is the most terrifying thing we have to go through. Death is the unknown and people fear unknown things. It is very difficult to die without the help of a doctor and without deadly medicine. The body is not created to kill itself - we are programmed to live. People should have the right to euthanasia - then we would not have to write here. We are all going to die - so force us to suffer pointlessly and die of old age?

 

[Garf125]

Failing a suicide attempt without sustaining permanant damage is never a bad thing. It gives you more time to think it over, seek help and more time for your family/friends to make memories of you. At the very worst you'll make them dislike you in that time and then it'll be easier for them to cope with your death. Don't think of it as a bad ending but more like the show got renewed for a new season. Hope all goes well you for man.

 

[unfixable]

Dying by accident is easy, dying on purpose with certainty is hard. I'm sorry for the pain you are in.

 

[ae300]

partial, 19 times, full 1

Yeah, but how? Just chicken out (which is in my opinion not a failed attempt) or by technical problems?

 

[MrDarkness]

Yeah, but how? Just chicken out (which is in my opinion not a failed attempt) or by technical problems?

Woke up due to seizures, I was at the right height on my tip toes to save myself, but if I didn't I would've strangled myself awake

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

Woke up due to seizures, I was at the right height on my tip toes to save myself, but if I didn't I would've strangled myself awake

If fully suspended you wouldn't have woken back up

 

[MrDarkness]

If fully suspended you wouldn't have woken back up

It was lmao, people wake up from full suspension due to seziures, I've done my research

 

[azuregem]

It was lmao, people wake up from full suspension due to seziures, I've done my research

Do people wake up due to seizures? That's scary :(

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

It was lmao, people wake up from full suspension due to seziures, I've done my research

Do you have article links? How did you escape once you regained consciousness?

 

[singularity3]

partial, 19 times, full 1

how failed the full?

 

[MrDarkness]

Do you have article links? How did you escape once you regained consciousness?

I kicked the ladder back up, and all the info I got was from people on the site etc

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

I kicked the ladder back up, and all the info I got was from people on the site etc

Hmm.. ok.