An event in my life happened, and I'm now certain that I will be catching the bus

[kvorumese]

I'm happy, because now I know that I will not be able to bear living with the thoughts that have now filled my head. I just need to hurry with the goddamn projects.
I used to want to finish my WIP projects and visit a couple countries in my lifetime before I proceeded with ctbing. Honestly, this is probably quite impulsive, but I don't want to have anything to do with those damn countries. As soon as I'm done with the projects, I'm ready to go - this is my current mindset - and although a lot can change, I hope that this doesn't. I'm tired of suffering, and suffering in Iceland or Japan or Germany is, albeit significantly more pleasant than while rotting in my small Russian town, still suffering. And I do not want to.
So I guess it's time to plan my method. I still intend to jump, because it can't get simpler than that - you overcome your SI to make a singular step, you jump, you fall on your head and/or neck and die - actually, please correct me if I'm wrong, I couldn't find any jumping megathread so I'm just going off of my assumptions.
Well, I'm really upset right now about what's happened to me. At the same time, I've not been happier, because now there is no undefined pieces in my life. The certainty brings me joy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also feel so tired, I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[maniac116]

I'm sorry your life has lead you to this difficult point & hope your transition is painless & you find a place of love & peace

 

[aespa]

depends how high you jump, what you land on, etc
also, look at this https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/questions-about-jumping.183086/

 

[kvorumese]

Today I've been having little to no appetite, breakfast at 4 pm. This is very good because it will help me to not overeat. I always end up overeating and then blaming, hating myself - guess what, not today! Today I have other reasons to hate myself and at least I can eat in relative peace

 

[NegevChina]

I'm also considering jumping or train.
There is sort of a mega thread right here:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/jumping-from-height-guide.47978/

 

[kvorumese]

I'm also considering jumping or train.
There is sort of a mega thread right here:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/jumping-from-height-guide.47978/

Thanks!
There's a question that's been left unanswered, or I couldn't find the answer, in the thread. Can I be sure that I don't spin while midair? If I jump and point myself downwards, is it certain that I won't flip over while plummeting down and end up on my feet?

 

[NegevChina]

Thanks!
There's a question that's been left unanswered, or I couldn't find the answer, in the thread. Can I be sure that I don't spin while midair? If I jump and point myself downwards, is it certain that I won't flip over while plummeting down and end up on my feet?

You need to be a professional diver or very trained in order to control how you land and avoid spinning. I came up with a method I'm considering to use my self for ensuring hitting head first. Its detailed in the last two posts of the guide thread.