An audience for the final moments

[RainAndSadness]

Hello.

I don't want to be alone in my final moments when I ctb. I know other members had an audience that either watched them on stream or talked to them in a call. How did they do that? So far I'm not sure who would be interested in being there in my final moments when I ctb. Nobody really likes me but I don't want to ctb alone. I don't want to feel lonely in these final moments. I was lonely my entire life and I'd like to have some company when I leave this world behind.

Thanks.

 

[Ghost2211]

I don't know where you get the idea nobody likes you. You need to come party with us more

As for your question I can't help much. I would be happy to do so, but can't since kids in the house. I assume people use any video networking apps. I hope you're able to find the company you desire. You're more valued than you realize.

 

[Emily_Numb]

I'm sorry to hear you are choosing to leave us. Please be careful just advertising this to strangers. Most people who chose to do this usually ask people they think they know and trust. People they have formed relationships/friendships with on here after a significant amount of time talking with them. I would always question those who would chose to watch someone CTB. Very concerning. Probably one of the things I'm strongly against that goes on here.

You are opening yourself up to predators and suicide fetishists doing this. I strongly advise you don't do this. You will potentially be exploited and recorded doing this.

 

[noaccount]

I like you.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I totally agree with everything @Emily_Numb said. Maybe someone you've chatted to could speak to you over the phone, so you're not alone? Hugs x

 

[noaccount]

@RainAndSadness It is really heartbreaking to me to see our society making life horrible and impossible for more lgbt family... Do you want to talk about it?

 

[Meretlein]

You have been on this forum longer than me and I always loved reading your posts. Modding this forum with you has been an honor. I am really sorry it has come to thing for you. I hope you find the peace you have long deserved.

 

[omoidarui]

as the Biebers ref this topic on twitter
rest assured we're never really alone v,v

 

[x~Sophia~x]

as the Biebers ref this topic on twitter
rest assured we're never really alone v,v

What does that mean? Who are the Biebers?

 

[Squiddy]

What does that mean? Who are the Biebers?

I think they're the ones who lost someone on this forum in 2019

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I think they're the ones who lost someone on this forum in 2019

And this is precisely the reason why livestreaming is a bad idea :(

 

[lostmyhope]

My heart sank seeing your name attached to this thread. You seem like a very kind person, and I'm sorry that life is driving you to this. And I'm sorry that you feel so alone. But I don't think you should openly stream your ctb...people are weird, and I would hate for it to end up recorded and uploaded to a website for the morbidly curious to watch forever. Why not a phone call with someone you trust?

 

[Spitfire]

Hello.

I don't want to be alone in my final moments when I ctb. I know other members had an audience that either watched them on stream or talked to them in a call. How did they do that? So far I'm not sure who would be interested in being there in my final moments when I ctb. Nobody really likes me but I don't want to ctb alone. I don't want to feel lonely in these final moments. I was lonely my entire life and I'd like to have some company when I leave this world behind.

Thanks.

You do not have to be alone. I would be there for you. I do not know how though?

 

[x~Sophia~x]

You do not have to be alone. I would be there for you. I do not know how though?

phone call?

 

[Silver]

I'm sorry to hear this Rain, and I definitely think you are liked and respected here.

 

[it's_all_a_game]

Please don't do this! Sickos will watch your death on disturbing sites.

 

[muffin222]

I don't have any useful answers to your questions, but I want you to know that I value you and your presence on the forum. I'm saddened that life has been so cruel to you and pushed you to the point of having to make the decision to go. I just hope you realize that you are liked and valued here

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I don't have any useful answers to your questions, but I want you to know that I value you and your presence on the forum. I'm saddened that life has been so cruel to you and pushed you to the point of having to make the decision to go. I just hope you realize that you are liked and valued here

 

[Forgotten]

I'm also planning to broadcast my CTB with SN to some people for scientific purposes. But yeah, only chose people you trust, there are some sickos out there who love to watch people die and some sneaky bastard might record your CTB and upload it for the entire internet to see, so chose your audience carefully. I don't know what software people use to broadcast these days, but back in the days we used skype or google hangouts, maybe stuff like Discord has feature like this as well?

 

[Donk]

Hey Rain. I appreciate the work you put as a mod and I appreciate your visit to the chat from time to time. It'll be my honour to be with you leading up to your final moments. Please PM me for date and time.

 

[neren]

If i were you i would do a conference call. I wouldn't do a video. Unless you were trying to end up on a website or a news channel.

 

[Kat!]

If i were you i would do a conference call. I wouldn't do a video. Unless you were trying to end up on a website or a news channel.

Most NEWS outlets do not report suicide out of respect for the family and to not cause copycats.

So unless you're going with a bang, it won't happen thankfully.

It's possible you may end up on a shock site though, and that's not something nice to have happen.

 

[The end !]

Aww rainy , I m in this with you and i always had a big crush on you <3

 

[lost_soul83]

Hello.

I don't want to be alone in my final moments when I ctb. I know other members had an audience that either watched them on stream or talked to them in a call. How did they do that? So far I'm not sure who would be interested in being there in my final moments when I ctb. Nobody really likes me but I don't want to ctb alone. I don't want to feel lonely in these final moments. I was lonely my entire life and I'd like to have some company when I leave this world behind.

Thanks.

I would be happy to be there with you.

 

[MindFrog]

Like the others say, its possible for you to get taken advantage of.

I hope you take caution with picking the people you want to accompany you, dear. You never know those who'll only reach out cause we're vulnerable. Maybe only choose the ones you're familiar with.

Although i get why you want someone to talk to.. sometimes I wish i have one too once I end it. I' m not good with talking, so I dont think I'm eligible so to speak.

but I do wish you the best. Just please be careful. Sending hugs.

 

[KleinerWolf]

For the record, you don't have to ctb if it doesn't sit right with you.
I know for some people including myself things can be hard and I understand both ends of the struggles.

As for your perception "no one likes me",
I probably haven't interacted much with you but I do like you.

 

[stygal]

Hey Rain,

First of all I'm really sorry it's coming to this.
I read about some of your struggles and it's heart-breaking how many different there are.

I admired some of your very well-written responses and knowledge advice. You seem like such a thoughtful and kind person and I doubt that people "hate" you here.
There might have been misunderstandings or different opinions but thats it.
I think that a lot of people really appreciate you and as you can see from the responses you get here - feel for you.

That being said - I agree with @MindFog.
I hope you're cautious and only PM those you know very well already to set up a private discord or maybe phone call.
Please don't let your vulnerability taken advantage of.

Sending you online hugs! <3

 

[Amumu]

Why wouldn't we like the big boss of SS ! I'm not sure it is a goodbye thread, but if it is, I wish you find peace, you deserve it.
I'm not ready for the live, I'm sorry. I hope you find strong and compassionate people who can help you for that.

 

[Deleted member 94]

I don't know where you get the idea nobody likes you, I've always seen loads of people who do. Just look at all the responses.

 

[TessB]

I just want to say the Biebers are on this thread right now watching your ever move please be careful.