Ardesevent
It’s the end of the line, cowboy
- Feb 2, 2020
- 358
I don't trust my dad anymore. He's harmless, but I'm starting to jump every time I see him even come near me. There's no reason for it, if he wanted to hurt me he'd had multiple opportunities to do something already. This morning he asked me why I didn't take out the trash yesterday like he asked me too, but I don't remember him even asking me to do that. I can't tell whether it's him or it's me.
I had a plan tonight to go out and throw myself in front of car. The reason I backed out wasn't due to guilt over traumatizing some stranger, but because I was scared someone might try to kidnap me or mug me while I was walking towards the street. How selfish can I get?
I keep dumping my problems onto this site. It's become the only place I can rely on anymore, the only place where some self-righteous white knight won't give me a fake smile and tell me that it'll all get better. I don't know anyone well at all on this site, but I know that all of you are all probably good people. I can't tell if that's me thinking that anymore though, or what I'm just telling myself.
I'm going to drink a bottle of rubbing alcohol tonight, and maybe eat some bug poison. With my luck I'll probably live and regret it in the morning, but to hell with it, maybe I'll get lucky.
I had a plan tonight to go out and throw myself in front of car. The reason I backed out wasn't due to guilt over traumatizing some stranger, but because I was scared someone might try to kidnap me or mug me while I was walking towards the street. How selfish can I get?
I keep dumping my problems onto this site. It's become the only place I can rely on anymore, the only place where some self-righteous white knight won't give me a fake smile and tell me that it'll all get better. I don't know anyone well at all on this site, but I know that all of you are all probably good people. I can't tell if that's me thinking that anymore though, or what I'm just telling myself.
I'm going to drink a bottle of rubbing alcohol tonight, and maybe eat some bug poison. With my luck I'll probably live and regret it in the morning, but to hell with it, maybe I'll get lucky.