Beachygirl

Beachygirl

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When I ctb hoping soon to do it will i really be missed do you think I'm going to hurt my friends and family am i wrong in doing this do i have good enough reasons to do this ?

What happens if I get thier and change my mind can I really do that even know everything is ready and I'm just waiting for the day to come.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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When I ctb hoping soon to do it will i really be missed do you think I'm going to hurt my friends and family am i wrong in doing this do i have good enough reasons to do this ?

What happens if I get thier and change my mind can I really do that even know everything is ready and I'm just waiting for the day to come.

These are questions only you can answer to be honest. If you're asking them you should really take some time to consider everything. Maybe write out the pros and cons to consider it, I know it helps some people. Just don't make any rash decisions because they usually don't end well.
 
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Beachygirl

Beachygirl

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These are questions only you can answer to be honest. If you're asking them you should really take some time to consider everything. Maybe write out the pros and cons to consider it, I know it helps some people. Just don't make any rash decisions because they usually don't end well.
I have been thinking about it and I do believe I'm doing the right thing but thier is a little bit of me that's scared but I cant really see a way forward anymore.
 
Quax

Quax

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Nov 16, 2019
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Hi Beachygirl,
Yes you will hurt your friends and family, no doubt.... and yes you will be missed. Reasons... there are no good or bad reason nor are there enough reasons....there are just reasons. I don't know what brought you to this point but I'm sure you have your very own reasons. And yes, you can change your mind.....always.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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I have been thinking about it and I do believe I'm doing the right thing but thier is a little bit of me that's scared but I cant really see a way forward anymore.

It's normal to be a bit scared atleast. Sometimes we can't see a way forward, but a way opens up and everything changes. You will know if and or when the time is right. Things will just click for you one way or the other.
 
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Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

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If you have people in your life, then if you go then of course you will be missed, just as you would miss them. Noone can say if its a right or wrong thing to do, because only the individual is suffering. I know years ago when I was suicidal before i didn't go ahead with it, because I had my mum and dad and couldn't bare to leave them (only people in my life who truly loved and cared for me) gradually they helped me out my depression/break down. I lost mum 7 years ago and since then dad and i have been one anothers rock I wanted to die when she died but kept going with my dad. I am now devastated as just before Christmas he passed and I am totally alone.

I dont wish to be here anymore as the agony and emptiness is incredible, plus have been chronically ill with many things for many years and not got good quality of life. I have yet to do it as although I want to be with my parents again, the only people who cared about me, (rest my family dont care and never have), two things stop me, not knowing if you take your life do you end up in peace and spirit world and secondly I am scared, scared to even know how to do it safely, the most pain free and best way. Even when I think I have the method in my head, something pulls me back.

Mum always told me where there is life there is hope, and that is true yet she also told me that she would understand if I ever did take my life, as she didn't wish for me to suffer. For a mother to say that, shows such an amount of love for her child. She loved me so much as did dad. I have nothing now, a couple of friends, but they have their own lives so not sure how much an impact would have. Although I do know that CTB has a lot more impact on people than we think or realize.

Dont be alone Beachgirl in this, in how you feel and as for feeling scared, I got your hand, cos I am scared too. xx
 
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I'm really envious that you have people who love you and will miss you .a lot of people don't have that blessing
If you are hesitant about your decision you might try to heal your heart ,everything takes time. live as much as you can with your beloved ones because you don't know if you will meet them again ..
 
Beachygirl

Beachygirl

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If you have people in your life, then if you go then of course you will be missed, just as you would miss them. Noone can say if its a right or wrong thing to do, because only the individual is suffering. I know years ago when I was suicidal before i didn't go ahead with it, because I had my mum and dad and couldn't bare to leave them (only people in my life who truly loved and cared for me) gradually they helped me out my depression/break down. I lost mum 7 years ago and since then dad and i have been one anothers rock I wanted to die when she died but kept going with my dad. I am now devastated as just before Christmas he passed and I am totally alone.

I dont wish to be here anymore as the agony and emptiness is incredible, plus have been chronically ill with many things for many years and not got good quality of life. I have yet to do it as although I want to be with my parents again, the only people who cared about me, (rest my family dont care and never have), two things stop me, not knowing if you take your life do you end up in peace and spirit world and secondly I am scared, scared to even know how to do it safely, the most pain free and best way. Even when I think I have the method in my head, something pulls me back.

Mum always told me where there is life there is hope, and that is true yet she also told me that she would understand if I ever did take my life, as she didn't wish for me to suffer. For a mother to say that, shows such an amount of love for her child. She loved me so much as did dad. I have nothing now, a couple of friends, but they have their own lives so not sure how much an impact would have. Although I do know that CTB has a lot more impact on people than we think or realize.

Dont be alone Beachgirl in this, in how you feel and as for feeling scared, I got your hand, cos I am scared too. xx
Thank you. Xx
 
Moonicide

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If you're asking us if you're doing the right thing, then it sounds like you're not ready or at peace with this decision. Will you be missed? Absolutely. Will you hurt people? Absolutely... But in the end you are the one that is suffering and in pain. This is your decision, your life, and your body... But given the fact you are uncertain, I definitely suggest waiting and thinking this through. May I ask you what brought you here and what is your story? Totally okay if you don't want to talk about it. But just know we are here to listen and support you during this.

Sending you all of my love and support.
Take care, love. :heart:
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

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When I ctb hoping soon to do it will i really be missed do you think I'm going to hurt my friends and family am i wrong in doing this do i have good enough reasons to do this ?

What happens if I get thier and change my mind can I really do that even know everything is ready and I'm just waiting for the day to come.

Only you can answer all these questions, as said in other posts, if you're asking these questions then are you really ready? This isn't something to rush into, to do out of impulse, this is a lifechanging choice. Of course it will impact other people, but you have to understand and accept those implications, if you can't do that or you aren't clear on the reasoning why you're doing it, then sit back, take a breath and really dig deep in your soul as to why you're even considering this. I hope you find some answers.
 
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HereToday

HereToday

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Only you know if you're doing the right thing for you.
It's always OK to change your mind, right up until the moment you put the cup to your lips
 
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