Help Am I depressed or suicidal?

[Paradikos Schast]

Hi, student, I am 20 years old. Decent life. No major problems; doing okay at school. I should be grateful, but I don't see life as good. Maybe I know that in the future I am going to suffer because I don't have any major talents or skills, but I just don't see the reason to try. It's just easier to CTB. I'm thinking about it every day. I'm trying to remember any good memories to rationalize not doing it, but I can't remember any. I am conscious of everything little, like answering a teacher's questions wrong in front of others. I remember things like that, but not good memories. I'm sad, but not sad enough to cry. Is it reasonable to feel like this?

 

[unabletocope]

I'm not into internet diagnosing but I would say you're down enough to see suicide as an outlet. What I'd say is look at what is getting you down and work it out, maybe answers you never expected will come to you out of it

 

[UKscotty]

Depression is what causes being suicidal so they are closely connected.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

Hi, student, I am 20 years old. Decent life. No major problems; doing okay at school. I should be grateful, but I don't see life as good. Maybe I know that in the future I am going to suffer because I don't have any major talents or skills, but I just don't see the reason to try. It's just easier to CTB. I'm thinking about it every day. I'm trying to remember any good memories to rationalize not doing it, but I can't remember any. I am conscious of everything little, like answering a teacher's questions wrong in front of others. I remember things like that, but not good memories. I'm sad, but not sad enough to cry. Is it reasonable to feel like this?

Were you a gifted kid?

 

[ctbcat]

sounds like both to me. your experience sounds kind of like anhedonia and avolition, two things i struggle with myself as a depressed person.

 

[Argo]

It sounds like a kind of trauma that has not been reflected on yet.