am i a bad person

[CosmicPaperCut]

am i a bad person for wanting my friends, family and partner to be hurt and devastated when i ctb. i dont have any heartfelt things to say, i want people to know i was suffering so much, i want people to regret not taking me seriously, to mourn me and hate themselves for not trying hard enough to save me. i want to be an example of what happens when you don't believe suicidal people

 

[sugarb]

am i a bad person for wanting my friends, family and partner to be hurt and devastated when i ctb. i dont have any heartfelt things to say, i want people to know i was suffering so much, i want people to regret not taking me seriously, to mourn me and hate themselves for not trying hard enough to save me. i want to be an example of what happens when you don't believe suicidal people

You're not a saint, but I wouldn't say evil. just human

 

[EvisceratedJester]

No, you aren't evil. You seem to just be longing for some validation and I get it. It can be hard when you feel like your issues aren't valid and that feeling can make us crave some pretty messed up things. Wanting them to feel hurt by you ctbing is just you wanting them to understand your suffering and to truly see how it has impacted you.

 

[F@#$]

I don't know about being a "bad" person. I plan on causing as much trauma and chaos as possible upon my departure. I know it's "not nice" or whatever but I'm definitely coming up with some cruel and brutal revenge for them to remember me by.

 

[RejectMetamorphosis]

am i a bad person for wanting my friends, family and partner to be hurt and devastated when i ctb. i dont have any heartfelt things to say, i want people to know i was suffering so much, i want people to regret not taking me seriously, to mourn me and hate themselves for not trying hard enough to save me. i want to be an example of what happens when you don't believe suicidal people

Definitely not evil. They should've taken you seriously in the first place.