All I do is hurt other people. I've recently some of my very close friends and family that I'm suicidal and hurting myself. For a time I was better, but I want to die again and I feel even worse as a result. I want to die but I worry that it'll only hurt them even more. I don't know what'd be worse, me hurting them unconsciously while I'm alive, or making the choice to kill myself and ruin traumatize them.
failedmind
lonely girl
- Oct 31, 2024
- 161
You're not a bad person, you're in pain. Your last sentence speaks to me a lot. I have been planning to CTB for over 10 years, but the guilt of hurting my family has held me back. But I also know staying alive as the depressed suicidal family member hurts them too. Its a battle. But no, you're not a bad person for wanting to kill yourself. You're hurting, and I'm sorry that you are
