Am feeling terrible, pathetic

[Parnate]

I am feeling so horrible right now. Am at my office and just unable to work. There's a forest besides my office I have such an intense desire to go there and hang myself right now. Just want the pain to end. Feeling so low and tired and sleepless.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Tell me all about it. The doctor is in.

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

I haven't been able to work for a few days. I'm at risk of becoming unemployed and I know all the consequences of that at my age (almost 60). I could practically survive for a while with the emergency fund I have, but after that it would be unpredictable. It's as if I'm unconsciously throwing myself into a situation where I decide to end this once and for all.

 

[ChaseTheSun]

I am right now in the exakt same situation. I am in the office and instead of working I am here on SaSu and parallel I am researching suicides of persons who killed themselfes with my prefered method, which is CO.
Well, soon I will sit unemployed at home.

It is really pathetic. I hate myself for who I am

 

[Parnate]

I haven't been able to work for a few days. I'm at risk of becoming unemployed and I know all the consequences of that at my age (almost 60). I could practically survive for a while with the emergency fund I have, but after that it would be unpredictable. It's as if I'm unconsciously throwing myself into a situation where I decide to end this once and for all.

How long have you been suicidal ? How did you manage to live till 60 with suicidal thoughts?

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

Approximately since I was 12. Yes, I did. But I don't see it as a positive thing. The quality of my life has always been poor. The fact that I'm here just proves it. I still want to escape this prison, even though I know my time is naturally running out.