Alright, they're taking the piss now.

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I'm constantly told that i have to ''go outside'' ''volunteer'' etc if i want to find a girlfriend, no amount is ever enough, if I truly was worthy of being loved, i'd ignore my heart issues and just be a good little trooper ! Exept that now that the people at my volunteering have witnessed first hand my heart issues, i'm told i probably wont be allowed to go there anymore, because i don't have anyone who can come get me if I faint, nor look after me at home afterwards. So basically... If I want someone to love me, i have to volunteer, but i can't volunteer, because i don't have anyone that loves me.

Yeah this is great thanks ! I totally have agency here and my desicions/actions clearly make a difference, i totally wouldnt have been in the exact same situation if I just stayed at home doing literally nothing. I'm sure glad i bothered loosing weight, finding hobbies, doing volunteering, goign to 109341903 therapy bullshit, learned to dress well, etc, it totally makes a difference and improoved my life wow ! It doesnt feel infinitely worse at all to be punished with hopeless complete and utter lonelyness after having done my absolute best to fix it, nice !

Of course, i wont be getting any help from ''friends'' and '''''''Family''''''' now that i literally can't do shit either.

 

[roommate]

Trying your best can be unrewarding at times, I'm sorry :(

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Trying your best can be unrewarding at times, I'm sorry :(

I'm straight up punished for my efforts, when i was a fat angry antisocial bastard who literally played video games all day and did nothing, i had friends, my family cared, and there was some women that liked me (despite me not being into them lol, but still). Now... that i'm a healthy weight, polite, well behaved, well dressed man who does volunteering and has hobbies... no one cares.