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Sslsh

Sslsh

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
292
So I was at the train station and this dude jumps onto the track with his arms wide open. The train was speeding towards him when a bystander wrestles him away from the track. This shit gave me an eerie feeling, kind of like what would have happened had he timed his jump better, or would I be in his position some day lol. Have you guys encountered other people trying to ctb? What would you guys make of something like this?
 
ohhgeeitsme

ohhgeeitsme

Wizard
Feb 5, 2020
694
I've never experienced it like that, but I have experienced people having a breakdown and saying they are going to kill themselves. Hell, I've been that person. Watching something like that unfold, a guy jumping in front of train, would really stick with me. I think my initial reaction would be to panic for him, and it would get my adrenaline going. Then after a while, I'd just think about what he must have been going through... which would then lead me back to thinking how cruel the world is that some guy actually tried to murder himself by jumping in front of a train. I think most people don't really think about how heavy that truly is and what that says about torturous life can be for some of us.
 
Sslsh

Sslsh

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
292
Would have to take the bus instead, I hear they can shut down the train for hours because someone jumped.
well luckily (?) they saved him so I could board the next train lol. But yeah it would have taken hours to clean up the splatter and for the police to investigate and shit
I've never experienced it like that, but I have experienced people having a breakdown and saying they are going to kill themselves. Hell, I've been that person. Watching something like that unfold, a guy jumping in front of train, would really stick with me. I think my initial reaction would be to panic for him, and it would get my adrenaline going. Then after a while, I'd just think about what he must have been going through... which would then lead me back to thinking how cruel the world is that some guy actually tried to murder himself by jumping in front of a train. I think most people don't really think about how heavy that truly is and what that says about torturous life can be for some of us.
People (mostly extroverts?) don't have that kind of empathy. And the world is filled with such people. They only care about themselves and their own feelings. I think such people often become the reason for a large chunk sensitive people killing themselves
 
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iwanttodie000

Student
Feb 15, 2021
199
I have never seen anything like that, but I would totally relate to it and have thought many times of that method. Luckily or unluckily (whatever is actually going on in his head is unknown) he was saved I guess. If that would of been me, I would have been pissed that someone saved me. But every situation is different. I hope with being saved he can turn his life around or find the peace he is seeking somehow.
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
I'm sorry you had to witness that, witnessing a suicide (attempt or otherwise) can mess you up for a long while. I hope you're ok, have you got a professional you can talk to about it?

I have witnessed suicide attempts, two actually. One while I was on holiday walking along the beach during the evening. I saw a lady walking into the water up till about chest deep (thinking she was swimming, an odd time for that but whatever). Then I noticed two others chasing down the beach, yelling something at her I couldn't hear. Didn't stay around too long to see the outcome but I assume they talked her down.

Second was actually in a park near my house, there was a lady looking very distressed on a park bench. She was dripping wet as she had doused herself in petrol. I could tell she was distraught by how much she was shaking. I remember the lighter in her right hand, it clicked a few times but never lit (thank heavens). Everything was getting too much and I wasn't getting anywhere with talking so I called police and ambulance to come help. A nice homeless dude also tried talking her down a bit and hit the petrol can when she wandered off. Police got her and took her to a safe place, I hope she's doing better now.

Just makes me feel really sad, knowing there's others who are going through such mental distress. That our society is so messed up that many are struggling to cope.
 
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UterEntonaur

UterEntonaur

Specialist
Aug 17, 2020
340
So I was at the train station and this dude jumps onto the track with his arms wide open. The train was speeding towards him when a bystander wrestles him away from the track. This shit gave me an eerie feeling, kind of like what would have happened had he timed his jump better, or would I be in his position some day lol. Have you guys encountered other people trying to ctb? What would you guys make of something like this?

Pre-pandemic and pre-suicidal thoughts; I used to take the train to London Bridge every day, usually every few months the train would "pause" for 10 minutes somewhere on the route, and the driver would announce that we'd have to hold for a while due to a "fatality on the line". Eventually they'd switch tracks, and the train would zoom past the incident, so people couldn't see what had happened.

It was weird every time, literally everyone on the carriage would **disgruntled moan** when the driver would make the announcement, because of the minor inconvenience to time that the incident had caused. I always wondered who it was and why they'd decided to CTB.
 
Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,050
I would of spat out my Pepsi Max at least.
 
Panna

Panna

Enlightened
Aug 31, 2020
1,006
I would have been curious for sure to see that moment, if nothing else the guy that pulled him off sounds like a real jerk. I have been curious about witnessing the moment of death firsthand to better understand it. So if I had been there, it would been a learning experience if nothing else.
 
Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,050
I would have been curious for sure to see that moment, if nothing else the guy that pulled him off sounds like a real jerk. I have been curious about witnessing the moment of death firsthand to better understand it. So if I had been there, it would been a learning experience if nothing else.
Do yourself a favour and don't look at the eyes.
 
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Symbiote

Global Mod
Oct 12, 2020
3,102
If I was in the moment of suicide, like already thinking of my own death, his CTBing wouldn't faze me because I'm so self-absorbed with my own eventual death that I would consider him lucky and wish him safe travels just like I do on SS. If I was just normal everyday Joe, yeah that would be pretty shocking and then it would pass on after a week. Some people are so "innocent" and untainted by life that this event would severely traumatize them.
 
BrokenHopes

BrokenHopes

What doesn't kill you, f*cks you up.
Nov 27, 2019
162
No I have never seen anybody trying to CTB. But a long time ago I went to work, an hour later I was finished and went back home. The whole apartment building was blocked off with police tape. When going up to my apartment I see a last glimpse before they sealed the body bag. I see the car that had been totally smashed by the jump. I sometimes wonder if he stood on the roof while I went to work or if he passed me on the street before going up.
 
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fred farkle

fred farkle

Specialist
Dec 17, 2020
346
i was on the train platform. a train was coming but it was an express,not stopping. i walked into the station to sit down and just at that point an older woman jumped in front of the train. everybody came in yelling. it was weird. i went out and walked a bit down the track and saw part of her torso.