Venting All i can think about

[BleederOfZion]

All I can think about when I am too idle is where/how I will cut myself during my next yeeting session. I think of all sorts of creative ways to do it. Currently the idea of cutting off a chunk of skin sounds appealing. I'm at work right now so I'll do it probably during my next trip to the bathroom or even at the desk since the office is empty.
I'm sad and tired and if only those who try to help me understand it. I hate myself so much that I fantasize about seeing myself from a third person point of view getting knifed, dragged into a treeline, and shot before being buried in an unmarked grave. I want it to end I want it to end i want to fucking kill myself I hate my self i hate myself