Venting Alcoholism

[l1ablemistakes]

I remember growing up and hearing my parents warn me about how alcoholism runs in our family. Yeah right. It would never be me.

Shock and horror! I'm a 22 year old alcoholic now. I drink about a bottle and a half of wine every day. As a healthcare worker I know exactly how bad that is. Last blood tests my liver and cholesterol were fucked. But I'm hoping I won't survive long enough to live the consequences. It's the only thing that can make me not think. Like genuinely not exist anymore. I also know it'll take away my survival instincts so I can finally do this properly.

Only a few people know I'm an alcoholic. I'm very high functioning. I feel like physical garbage almost always but I'm great at hiding it. I'm chronically ill so even if I took care of myself I'd probably still feel like shit. People keep telling me I need to quit and get sober but how do I find the motivation knowing I'll be dead in 6 months? Probably sooner if I go sober.

 

[NameOfAction]

GHB? Kava?

Why'd you pick the most hypotoxic drug to numb yourself with?
Wouldn't you rather not acquire a yellow hue before it's time?

 

[l1ablemistakes]

GHB? Kava?

Why'd you pick the most hypotoxic drug to numb yourself with?
Wouldn't you rather not acquire a yellow hue before it's time?

I have a dealer so I can get ket, coke, md, whatever. Im also on medi weed. I guess it's just ritual.

 

[youpi]

Replace alcohol with GHB ?
I too, suffer from alcoholism, my grandpa was one, i was warned like you, it took 20 years to happen until i lived next to a small shop selling beers..

 

[l1ablemistakes]

Replace alcohol with GHB ?

I'd replace it with anything. I'm in Australia so idk where to get anything. DM me if you know please :')

 

[youpi]

I'd replace it with anything. I'm in Australia so idk where to get anything. DM me if you know please :')

Wait you are alcoholic or GHBholic?
Replace alcohol with GHB and taper down man, it's going to be fun!
Also you have medical weed man, I don't want to make it less hard than it is but you can kick that alcohol with a benzo + weed + GHB easily!