Ain’t got the balls

[Lostworld01]

I don't speak to any of my family, I don't have any friends. I spend all my time alone….. but I ain't got the balls to CTB . Wot are you meant to do?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I don't speak to any of my family, I don't have any friends. I spend all my time alone….. but I ain't got the balls to CTB . Wot are you meant to do?

Cope. Unfortunately, I cannot accept that.

 

[Lostworld01]

Cope. Unfortunately, I cannot accept that.

U don't have to

 

[WorthlessTrash]

U don't have to

Oh trust me. I am not xD

 

[releasespieces]

Right there with you. I'm in the exact same position. No family, no friends and too weak to actually CTB. Just sit around wishing I was strong enough to do it or that something would drastically change, but nothing ever does. You're not alone.

 

[Lostworld01]

Right there with you. I'm in the exact same position. No family, no friends and too weak to actually CTB. Just sit around wishing I was strong enough to do it or that something would drastically change, but nothing ever does. You're not alone.

So we are just meant to wonder around this rubbish life? I've been doing it too long now. There's just no point, nothing to look forward to, Christmas alone….life sucks! I used to have a life years and years ago, now I just stare at my door thinking shall I do it….then pussy out again for another day….. just goes round and around continuously

 

[jodes2]

Sometimes life gets better with some help, time, and a bit of inspiration I hope it happens to you

 

[Lostworld01]

Sometimes life gets better with some help, time, and a bit of inspiration I hope it happens to you

Thank you, but without sounding like I'm talking to u like sh*t. There is no help, I've had enough of time and I lost all inspiration a long time ago

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it can certainly be so awful feeling trapped in an existence that you hate. I'm also incredibly tired of everything and of course I wish that suicide isn't this difficult. It really shouldn't be such a struggle to set ourselves free from this existence that we never asked for, and your feelings are understandable. But I do hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[releasespieces]

I just keep holding out for a new painless method that will surface here. I really wish that they would make assisted legal in the US for mental illness, but I think we all know that would be beyond a long shot.

 

[Lostworld01]

Wish someone would do it for me, walk behind me and shoot me, quick and painless, then it takes the decision away from me

 

[Reallysad]

I'm the same just wish there was a pill
Or something to make me go.if a animal is in pain They put it down so why can they not do it for humans in mental or physical pain

 

[makethepainstop]

I don't speak to any of my family, I don't have any friends. I spend all my time alone….. but I ain't got the balls to CTB . Wot are you meant to do?

You could reestablish communications with your family, then go out and try to make new friends.

 

[Pluto]

From my experience, if the situation drags on for long enough, it will reach a stage where the horrors of ageing take over. Watching helplessly as it become too late to start to live life and seeing that it was futile all along eventually makes the body uninhabitable.

Your only real options are:
1) Fight to recover like a wounded bull, prioritising proper connections with others (via employment, activities, friendships, hobbies, relationships, family, etc.)
2) Let the situation drag on until it becomes unbearable and change is inevitable
3) You-know-what

 

[Anon1337]

The thought of living a miserable life for decades to come because of SI is terrifying. This could be my future because my SI is strong and It's difficult to access painless, quick methods.

You're not alone.