sweetdecadance77
Member
- Apr 15, 2026
- 19
i'm at a loss of what to say. i barely even think anymore because i'm insanely numb. i don't have anyone to believe in me because i am all i've got. lonely is an understatement, disconnected is on the right track, but nothing could truly express how absent i am from life. i'm not good with my words as i go most days speaking minimally with the family i live with and with randos on discord, though the latter is mostly through pictures of my cat and shitty memes. no gears are turning. absolutely rusted and disheveled. the truth is that my life is empty and i'm a bit sick of messages that paint a pretty picture that every life has substance and potential. once your full body is submerged in depression then nothing can yank you away; a limb will stay attached to it no matter what. success stories are fiction at minimum and complete propaganda at most. just tired of every day, every hour. i wish something terrible would happen just so i could feel something
