Aftermath of a psychiatric hold

[SuicideAwaits]

I was placed involuntarily in a psychiatric facility due to a suicide "attempt" (I use that term loosely as I more so practiced hyping myself up in the mirror with a gun to my head and then told my therapist I was planning to CTB that following month).

I'm grateful to have a loving support system who was hurt to hear this but it sucks having to pretend that 5 days in a facility magically cleared up 15+ years of suicidal thoughts. I no longer trust therapy, I can't open up to anyone as they'll know that the treatments didn't work and worry I'll try again. I feel stuck here unless I try again but make it look like an accident.

Y'all are the only ones I can really open up to who understands, thank you.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Since you weren't in immediate danger your therapist should have worked with you more instead of being trigger-happy. All that accomplished was causing you trauma and completely destroying your trust in the MH system.

 

[ctb7767]

I was placed involuntarily in a psychiatric facility due to a suicide "attempt" (I use that term loosely as I more so practiced hyping myself up in the mirror with a gun to my head and then told my therapist I was planning to CTB that following month).

I'm grateful to have a loving support system who was hurt to hear this but it sucks having to pretend that 5 days in a facility magically cleared up 15+ years of suicidal thoughts. I no longer trust therapy, I can't open up to anyone as they'll know that the treatments didn't work and worry I'll try again. I feel stuck here unless I try again but make it look like an accident.

Y'all are the only ones I can really open up to who understands, thank you.

I think it's mainly to remove any liability from your therapist. If you told him that and you went through with it, he would be in big trouble.

 

[SuicideAwaits]

That's true, I don't blame my therapist at all for having me committed. However, now I don't see much of a point of going back to therapy if I can't be open and honest without the possibility of getting committed again, that part kinda sucks.