guinea-pig
:0
- Jul 31, 2023
- 42
6 years. I was in therapy since I was a kid and it helped with some issues but it never helped with wanting to die. It's not going to be a feeling that is going away for me I feel like and I don't want to live every day wanting to die.
CW36
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- Jul 23, 2023
- 839
Techef
Student
- Jun 19, 2023
- 124
Mental illness I tried treatment for 13 years before giving up. Physical illnesses I tried 6 years for my chronic illnesses (though I still take meds), a little les than 2 years for terminal (diagnosed at an awkward period where it wasn't quite terminal but prognosis wasn't good, tried treatment because it was required to apply for SSDI, didn't work and became terminal, SSDI app got expedited but still needs time to get benefits and the amount I'll receive 1) won't start before I become homeless and 2) won't be enough to help me survive anyway).
jussaloser
Member
- Jun 20, 2023
- 61
sometimes.sometimes
Student
- Jun 4, 2023
- 145
BlazingBob
I'm still here b/c of my dogs
- Oct 28, 2021
- 602
30 plus years. Nothing has worked. I'm physically and mentally worse now than ever.
At 8 I knew life was hopeless and no one would stop the abuse. I'm 41 now still wishing I hadn't survived.
girlsboysthems
no i dont have a gun
- Dec 19, 2022
- 420
a ffew years ago i started looking for a solution and this is the time im giving up. the bus is coming and im not missing it.
Probably be 16 years if I do the math correctly. How I wish I should have ended it right there.
lawlietsph
can we be done here
- May 6, 2023
- 166
I think it was a slow process for me. It all started getting really bad when I was 13, but I've had some hope back then and also things that made me happy. I genuinely thought it was going to get better. Then around the age of 21 I've had the worst mental breakdown ever. I was in a deep, dark place and realized that no matter what I do or who's around me, or what happens in the future etc.. it will NEVER get better. I will always feel awful about myself and the world. I realized that existence itself is a huge burden to me. Currently I am 27 and I accepted almost everything. I just want it all to end so I'll never feel anything ever again. Because it hurts so much.
