Discussion Advice on leaving high-risk loved ones?

[KlakkidClaude]

I have a girlfriend who I love more than anything in the entire world, who has traumas and mental health issues that leave me scared to leave her alone. I don't want my death to traumatize her any further and the idea of my actions pushing her over the edge makes me sick to my stomach. I know she wouldn't understand how I feel at all. I want to make things as painless as possible, not just for me physically, but for her mentally as well. How should I handle this? I know if I tried to talk about things, she would just try to steer me towards conventional therapy. At the same time, I don't want to irreversibly hurt her. I am so conflicted. I know this is hypocritical -- I want to die but I don't want her to follow what I'm doing. I'm just looking for some advice from people who won't just yell at me to see yet another useless therapist or call some bullshit hotline that doesn't give two shits about me.

Fuck my fucking life. Everything is terrible but I can't leave because I care too much.

 

[metasploit123]

The situation in which you are in right now is not very uncommon many people have loved ones before they are planning to go away in your case it's your girlfriend , now see you it's impossible that she won't get sad if you go but you can lower her sadness, meaning you can tell her something like , you cheated on her and then tell her that u are going away by this yes she'll be sad but she'll also hate you for cheating and this way she won't even blame herself if you die because she won't know it in the first place, so tell her that u cheated on her and ghost her .

 

[lookingforsanctuary]

The ones we leave behind are always the problem, for me. I can't bring myself to hurt them so much.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it's always a terrible idea being open about wanting to die as it will just mean that other people will very likely try to interfere, rather than respect the decision to leave and this will just lead to more suffering.

Apart from leaving a note which can mean that those left behind are less likely to be left with as many unanswered questions, there just isn't much that can be done, but anyway if someone else decides to ctb then that's their choice, everybody has the right to take control over our inevitable fate. We are all destined for nowhere but death anyway and I bet that eventually most of us very likely won't even exist in the memories of those who continue to stay here.