Deleted member 7141
Do not be prisoner of your life. Die a little, lol
- Apr 15, 2019
- 52
In January 2019 I experienced a failed suicide attempt. I went old school and choose the "slit my wrist" method with a twist. I heard that reaching the main artery that people usually cut located in their wrist is also accessible in the middle of your arm. It has been said cutting the middle of the arm to reach it less painful than cutting at your wrist.
So, I decided to try this method for a second time...
The first time was many years ago. I was in a small locked bathroom- the kind with stand-up shower. I turned on the hot water to create steam in the room, and put clothing at the door so the steam wouldn't leak out.
I had heard laying in a hot bath or laying down in a steamed room could make the blood rush out faster.
Sure enough, it did! The only problem is that I didn't hit a main artery. I hit something else that made the blood flow fast in combination with the steam/heat. Blood filled up small bathroom floor and leaked under door. I heard people coming to the door,so dispite feeling weak from so much blood loss, I tried to use my body to block the door from being opened. I had to be carried out the bathroom I had lost so much blood but I survived. Boooo!
The next time I tried this method was many years later, 10+; January 2019. I had attempts before January 2019, like in 2015, ingesting posion (Arsenic) (bad seller, another story, another time, another lesson learned about where I get (CTB) supplies online).... but I hadn't tried the 'cut wrist method' in a long time.
I decided to try it laying in a tube this time. I lost 3 pints of blood but didn't die. I came close I think. My heart beat changed, I began to feel light-headed like I was starting to slip away into unconsciousness, I began to feel nauseated and vomited stomach bile. I became very weak and felt disoriented. I still couldn't cut deep enough to hit the main artery. Cutting at the wrist is to painful for me
The more I think about it I really want to bleed out slowly so want to consider other methods involve bleeding to death but in a slow manner.
Here are my questions for the community:
1. Do you know of any sharp instruments I can use that are so sharp it will slice through my skin easily and quickly like a knife cutting through warm butter?
- I bought scaples from Amazon, loose blades, razor blades, ect. Kitchen knives. They were all so blunt it drew out the process and made it especially painful. Is there a particular name brand i.e. knife or ect I just haven't heard of that will slice more easily through layers of fat and finially an artery?
2. Does anyone know of a method to inflict fatal wounds or cuts that will bleed out slowly? I want some time to think over my life one last time, enjoy the moment, maybe pass away as I watch a sunset. I don't just want to bleed out to quickly. I want to enjoy my last monents on earth easing into it until I give up my last breath.
3. If I can't have that bleed to death slow method I so desire then I am open to suggestions on how to improve my method of trying to cut the main artery in middle of my arm so next time it will be a success; hence artery reached.
So, I decided to try this method for a second time...
The first time was many years ago. I was in a small locked bathroom- the kind with stand-up shower. I turned on the hot water to create steam in the room, and put clothing at the door so the steam wouldn't leak out.
I had heard laying in a hot bath or laying down in a steamed room could make the blood rush out faster.
Sure enough, it did! The only problem is that I didn't hit a main artery. I hit something else that made the blood flow fast in combination with the steam/heat. Blood filled up small bathroom floor and leaked under door. I heard people coming to the door,so dispite feeling weak from so much blood loss, I tried to use my body to block the door from being opened. I had to be carried out the bathroom I had lost so much blood but I survived. Boooo!
The next time I tried this method was many years later, 10+; January 2019. I had attempts before January 2019, like in 2015, ingesting posion (Arsenic) (bad seller, another story, another time, another lesson learned about where I get (CTB) supplies online).... but I hadn't tried the 'cut wrist method' in a long time.
I decided to try it laying in a tube this time. I lost 3 pints of blood but didn't die. I came close I think. My heart beat changed, I began to feel light-headed like I was starting to slip away into unconsciousness, I began to feel nauseated and vomited stomach bile. I became very weak and felt disoriented. I still couldn't cut deep enough to hit the main artery. Cutting at the wrist is to painful for me
The more I think about it I really want to bleed out slowly so want to consider other methods involve bleeding to death but in a slow manner.
Here are my questions for the community:
1. Do you know of any sharp instruments I can use that are so sharp it will slice through my skin easily and quickly like a knife cutting through warm butter?
- I bought scaples from Amazon, loose blades, razor blades, ect. Kitchen knives. They were all so blunt it drew out the process and made it especially painful. Is there a particular name brand i.e. knife or ect I just haven't heard of that will slice more easily through layers of fat and finially an artery?
2. Does anyone know of a method to inflict fatal wounds or cuts that will bleed out slowly? I want some time to think over my life one last time, enjoy the moment, maybe pass away as I watch a sunset. I don't just want to bleed out to quickly. I want to enjoy my last monents on earth easing into it until I give up my last breath.
3. If I can't have that bleed to death slow method I so desire then I am open to suggestions on how to improve my method of trying to cut the main artery in middle of my arm so next time it will be a success; hence artery reached.
