addiction making SI worse

[gothfairy]

i'm an addict and i relapsed 3 times in a week trying desperately to escape the SI. being sober has made my SI 10x worse. im wondering if anyone else has experienced this?

 

[charlie_z]

I'm not sure I qualify to answer your question. I'm 52, and I only recently started smoking pot. I can tell you this; it's much more likely that I'm going to be high rather than sober when I finally CTB. I don't know if that comes close to offering and answer. I hope you can find peace someway soon.

 

[LittleJem]

I got (very) high yesterday on a weed oil capsule my friend gave me. Suicidal thoughts did disappear, but I do not enjoy being high anymore, as my mind lies to me when I'm high, and I don't like it. It also made me pass out for hours. Drugs have helped me, but I don't enjoy them anymore. Medication doesn't help much. I need to try some more...

 

[BPD_LE]

i'm an addict and i relapsed 3 times in a week trying desperately to escape the SI. being sober has made my SI 10x worse. im wondering if anyone else has experienced this?

Yes. I have also relapsed in an attempt to sofen SI.

 

[Shakespear's Brother]

i'm an addict and i relapsed 3 times in a week trying desperately to escape the SI. being sober has made my SI 10x worse.

When you say SI, are you referring to suicidal ideation or "survival instinct" ?

 

[Qdv]

Yes it seems to temporarily blunt the absolute need I would otherwise feel to exit

 

[gothfairy]

When you say SI, are you referring to suicidal ideation or "survival instinct" ?

suicidal ideation