Actually wanting to live in a world like this is something that I could never understand

[FuneralCry]

To me it could never make sense how and why anyone would ever want to exist in a world like this. For me, rather than specific life circumstances and events being the problem, I see life itself as being the problem. How could life itself not be the problem, it's the true cause of all suffering after all. All of the problems that we go through today would have never affected us if we were never born, and if we were to die, they would not continue to affect us. I just think that life itself is not desirable in any way, it doesn't appeal to me and there's no value to enduring existence.

One of the main problems about life is all of the pain and suffering that exists in all it's different forms. Life is unpredictable and uncertain and things could easily get much worse for anyone at any moment. This is why actually wanting to live is delusional, as nobody can guarantee that they will not experience the worst possible suffering. I do see something horrible in ageing, especially very old age. What could ever be desirable about deteriorating from health issues that come with old age, and as we all know awful health conditions are not even limited to those of an old age. Therefore wanting suicide can be a perfectly rational response to seeing life for what it really is. It makes sense to take control over our own death rather than waiting to die from some horrific illness.

I think that as well as all the extreme suffering, just the whole fulfilling endless needs, and the repetitive and monotonous nature of life also makes me want to leave as there's just no point. I dislike nearly everything associated with life and at the end of the day life is all for nothing. I'm tired of waking up, tired of the same thoughts, tired of being trapped in this human body. There probably are more people suicidal than we think, they just hide how they feel as suicide is so stigmatised after all. I think that if suicide was as easy as just buying N from a pharmacy then most people would choose it over an unsatisfying life. And yet even with everything wrong with life, people still believe in delusions that life is a positive thing and continue to invalidate all the suffering that exists. They are simply in denial of the cruel nature of existence. In an ideal world everyone would see life for what it really is and then our right to die would be respected.

 

[msci4499]

I wish you the courage to face death
so you can be free
Free yourself from posting the same text over and over again

 

[LeavingEarly]

I remember when I enjoyed life. Marijuana was my downfall.

 

[CTB Dream]

People ignore other human other animal, wabt living temporary one day most leave human ve old see lot old people say ctb not want life, human lie each other force idea mob one human afraid feel say terrible living pretend same mob. Now see year year happen what human say happy later sad , see people happy say want live later tragic, most sad other human tell happy cool tragic happen every leave

 

[eldiablo666]

you can't? It's called brain washing

I wish you the courage to face death
so you can be free
Free yourself from posting the same text over and over again

Really man?

To me it could never make sense how and why anyone would ever want to exist in a world like this. For me, rather than specific life circumstances and events being the problem, I see life itself as being the problem. How could life itself not be the problem, it's the true cause of all suffering after all. All of the problems that we go through today would have never affected us if we were never born, and if we were to die, they would not continue to affect us. I just think that life itself is not desirable in any way, it doesn't appeal to me and there's no value to enduring existence.

One of the main problems about life is all of the pain and suffering that exists in all it's different forms. Life is unpredictable and uncertain and things could easily get much worse for anyone at any moment. This is why actually wanting to live is delusional, as nobody can guarantee that they will not experience the worst possible suffering. I do see something horrible in ageing, especially very old age. What could ever be desirable about deteriorating from health issues that come with old age, and as we all know awful health conditions are not even limited to those of an old age. Therefore wanting suicide can be a perfectly rational response to seeing life for what it really is. It makes sense to take control over our own death rather than waiting to die from some horrific illness.

I think that as well as all the extreme suffering, just the whole fulfilling endless needs, and the repetitive and monotonous nature of life also makes me want to leave as there's just no point. I dislike nearly everything associated with life and at the end of the day life is all for nothing. I'm tired of waking up, tired of the same thoughts, tired of being trapped in this human body. There probably are more people suicidal than we think, they just hide how they feel as suicide is so stigmatised after all. I think that if suicide was as easy as just buying N from a pharmacy then most people would choose it over an unsatisfying life. And yet even with everything wrong with life, people still believe in delusions that life is a positive thing and continue to invalidate all the suffering that exists. They are simply in denial of the cruel nature of existence. In an ideal world everyone would see life for what it really is and then our right to die would be respected.

There's so much truth in your post but unfortunately people are way to brainwashed and blind to see it.

Know that you're right about life, FC, you're absolutely correct.
I have your back.

 

[universe]

Life is a terrible machination. The funny thing is that to survive there, people are forced to desperately search for meaning, they create it themselves. Isn't that already a sign that there is a problem somewhere? That life inherently causes difficulties for living beings? I also have a real aversion to the concept of life, the animal world is just as terrifying. Killing is the norm in nature, killing to eat and survive already seems very cruel to me.

Life is terribly repetitive, like a fish in a bowl that can never escape from itself. Who gets stuck, is kept alive artificially by a bit of food, changed water and a survival instinct. This is how I see consciousness, you can never break free from it, even in dreams. The only way to be free is to die. I could never enjoy being aware and being alive. The very fact of seeing, moving, feeling makes me sad, no matter what I am doing at the moment. I have only one goal left, to have all the material for CTB.

 

[Amor]

Life is a terrible machination. The funny thing is that to survive there, people are forced to desperately search for meaning, they create it themselves. Isn't that already a sign that there is a problem somewhere? That life inherently causes difficulties for living beings? I also have a real aversion to the concept of life, the animal world is just as terrifying. Killing is the norm in nature, killing to eat and survive already seems very cruel to me.

Life is terribly repetitive, like a fish in a bowl that can never escape from itself. Who gets stuck, is kept alive artificially by a bit of food, changed water and a survival instinct. This is how I see consciousness, you can never break free from it, even in dreams. The only way to be free is to die. I could never enjoy being aware and being alive. The very fact of seeing, moving, feeling makes me sad, no matter what I am doing at the moment. I have only one goal left, to have all the material for CTB.

Yes. Life is just pain and depravity and abuse. Death is truly the only way to be free. Life scares me, surviving another suicide attempt scares me, but death doesn't. There's nothing in life that's worth staying for. It's just pain.

 

[universe]

Yes. Life is just pain and depravity and abuse. Death is truly the only way to be free. Life scares me, surviving another suicide attempt scares me, but death doesn't. There's nothing in life that's worth staying for. It's just pain.

Yes, it's true. I am also very afraid of life.

 

[actual_fox]

One of the main problems about life is all of the pain and suffering that exists in all it's different forms. Life is unpredictable and uncertain and things could easily get much worse for anyone at any moment. This is why actually wanting to live is delusional, as nobody can guarantee that they will not experience the worst possible suffering.

Hey girl, don't you feel that sometimes thing might get good or that there might be things that are worth doing instead of posting here all the time. I understand you are venting but I will wait for you to tell me what you did today to try to get your mind of things. If things are so hopeless tho for you 24/7 then you might be egligable to ask for dignifying exit via some organization that works in Switzerland. That could be your goal to achieve somehow, something to try to work on.

I do not want to see you post here hopelessly in despair. I do not want to see myself do that either. I will try to solve that riddle as you solve yours, on what to do with my life. Can we do that for ourselves so we are both not stuck in this rot. Please

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

To me it could never make sense how and why anyone would ever want to exist in a world like this. For me, rather than specific life circumstances and events being the problem, I see life itself as being the problem. How could life itself not be the problem, it's the true cause of all suffering after all. All of the problems that we go through today would have never affected us if we were never born, and if we were to die, they would not continue to affect us. I just think that life itself is not desirable in any way, it doesn't appeal to me and there's no value to enduring existence.

One of the main problems about life is all of the pain and suffering that exists in all it's different forms. Life is unpredictable and uncertain and things could easily get much worse for anyone at any moment. This is why actually wanting to live is delusional, as nobody can guarantee that they will not experience the worst possible suffering. I do see something horrible in ageing, especially very old age. What could ever be desirable about deteriorating from health issues that come with old age, and as we all know awful health conditions are not even limited to those of an old age. Therefore wanting suicide can be a perfectly rational response to seeing life for what it really is. It makes sense to take control over our own death rather than waiting to die from some horrific illness.

I think that as well as all the extreme suffering, just the whole fulfilling endless needs, and the repetitive and monotonous nature of life also makes me want to leave as there's just no point. I dislike nearly everything associated with life and at the end of the day life is all for nothing. I'm tired of waking up, tired of the same thoughts, tired of being trapped in this human body. There probably are more people suicidal than we think, they just hide how they feel as suicide is so stigmatised after all. I think that if suicide was as easy as just buying N from a pharmacy then most people would choose it over an unsatisfying life. And yet even with everything wrong with life, people still believe in delusions that life is a positive thing and continue to invalidate all the suffering that exists. They are simply in denial of the cruel nature of existence. In an ideal world everyone would see life for what it really is and then our right to die would be respected.

It is as if life is the torture and death is the release. I definitely wish I was never born into this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Hey girl, don't you feel that sometimes thing might get good or that there might be things that are worth doing instead of posting here all the time. I understand you are venting but I will wait for you to tell me what you did today to try to get your mind of things. If things are so hopeless tho for you 24/7 then you might be egligable to ask for dignifying exit via some organization that works in Switzerland. That could be your goal to achieve somehow, something to try to work on.

I do not want to see you post here hopelessly in despair. I do not want to see myself do that either. I will try to solve that riddle as you solve yours, on what to do with my life. Can we do that for ourselves so we are both not stuck in this rot. Please

I do believe that there is nothing good or desirable about enduring existence. Life itself will always be the problem, no matter what. Life is not worth anything, in fact there is nothing to be gained from being alive, staying alive only prolongs suffering. All that humans do is pass the time until they die, that's all life is. People focus on 'goals' or 'purposes' as a way to distract themselves from the pointless nature of existence. It all leads nowhere. Many people likely fear insignificance, it's hard for them to come to terms with the fact that their life is not important. I don't understand these people, to die and be forgotten about would be ideal for me.

Life could never be worth it for me, and I could never have any interest in being alive. Eventually I will die no matter what and when life gets worse I will finally find a way to leave. There are many reasons as to why I cannot go to an assisted suicide clinic and if it was so easy for people to get accepted and go there then there wouldn't be any suicide forums.

For me personally the best thing to do is to focus on suicide related subjects. I find the thought of non existence to be comforting. Thinking about death and reading about how horrible life is doesn't make me feel worse. Often posting about it can pass the time. People should spend time acknowledging how awful life really is instead of trying to delude themselves. Suffering is the reality of this existence. Forced optimism and toxic positivity just makes me feel worse instead. I've never wanted to live and being suicidal is all that I know, it's simply the way that I am. I do not do that much with my time, the thought of a 'productive' life is incredibly depressing.

I know that no matter what there will be nothing here for me in this world and I will always dislike living. There is no 'help', my way of thinking is perfectly rational. Only death will solve the problem that is life and it will come eventually no matter what.

 

[actual_fox]

Life could never be worth it for me, and I could never have any interest in being alive. Eventually I will die no matter what and when life gets worse I will finally find a way to leave. There are many reasons as to why I cannot go to an assisted suicide clinic and if it was so easy for people to get accepted and go there then there wouldn't be any suicide forums.

What are those reasons? I mean I see you hate life so I wonder what stops you to ask for euthanasia option

 

[FuneralCry]

What are those reasons? I mean I see you hate life so I wonder what stops you to ask for euthanasia option

It's not legal in my country, and from what I've read the process of applying sounds complicated and it's difficult to be accepted. I've read about people on here being rejected when trying to apply.

 

[actual_fox]

It's not legal in my country, and from what I've read the process of applying sounds complicated and it's difficult to be accepted. I've read about people on here being rejected when trying to apply.

I wish you best, I would start with proper diagnosis, but myself I hate going to psychiatry so I do not want to push you or anything.

 

[hellispink]

living indeed is torture. People lie to themselves to survive the best they can. I just want to leave, escape this disgrace.

 

[eldiablo666]

living indeed is torture. People lie to themselves to survive the best they can. I just want to leave, escape this disgrace.

Humans are creatures of habit, we usually get used to anything as long as it's happening in a routine.

Torture is a rule but it's something we can get used to and even love