rainatthebusstop
feel free to kill me
- Aug 20, 2025
- 173
Hello there.
I have been on this forum for quite a while and I have been circling the drain for even longer. Last year I decided on a plan to CBT only for it to fall through at the last minute and I have been passively suicidal ever since.
And let me tell you, it sucks. I can barely focus, and all my thoughts are circling the hope that maybe tomorrow I will have died in my sleep. Maybe today is the day someone stabs me. My life has gotten actively worse ever since then and I see no way out. There is none. I tried.
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So my question is how I can reactivate my suicidal ideation. What can I do to stop dreading my fear of failure and finally push through my inertia? What would you recommend to really get through my attempt?
I have to choose a rather "violent" method so feel free to recommend something to kill my survival instincts too.
I have been on this forum for quite a while and I have been circling the drain for even longer. Last year I decided on a plan to CBT only for it to fall through at the last minute and I have been passively suicidal ever since.
And let me tell you, it sucks. I can barely focus, and all my thoughts are circling the hope that maybe tomorrow I will have died in my sleep. Maybe today is the day someone stabs me. My life has gotten actively worse ever since then and I see no way out. There is none. I tried.
A
So my question is how I can reactivate my suicidal ideation. What can I do to stop dreading my fear of failure and finally push through my inertia? What would you recommend to really get through my attempt?
I have to choose a rather "violent" method so feel free to recommend something to kill my survival instincts too.
