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tofu.cat

tofu.cat

tofu
Apr 6, 2026
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i don't have access to a lot of methods provided here. i can't really get packages without them being checked, i have no access to a gun, no access to medications or drugs, etc. i can't even leave my house without someone with me.

i live in daily pain from a physical disability and this is my only option of not being constantly sore and depressed from it. i'm just really tired and i don't want to live like this anymore.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,548
I feel you because I have several disabilities too and I know what is constant physical and mental pain. I guess that assisted suicide is not legal where you live ? Just know that you're not alone in this situation. I can only send you hugs and wish you peace 🕊️💖
 
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Pvnie

Pvnie

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Oct 8, 2022
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Theoretically and hypothetically speaking, you could use a certain piece of cutlery that shares a name with a certain influential swedish rapper.
 
tofu.cat

tofu.cat

tofu
Apr 6, 2026
4
I feel you because I have several disabilities too and I know what is constant physical and mental pain. I guess that assisted suicide is not legal where you live ? Just know that you're not alone in this situation. I can only send you hugs and wish you peace 🕊️💖
it's not legal in my state, no. i wouldn't be eligible because my disability isn't terminal.
Theoretically and hypothetically speaking, you could use a certain piece of cutlery that shares a name with a certain influential swedish rapper.
i've been keeping this in mind but i have an aversion to blood and would prefer it to be as painless as possible.
 
ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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I'm in a very similar situation as yours. I can't get any package. My room is checked. I can't have anything suspicious in my room. They even seized the plastic bags i had kept to try ctb using plastic bag method.
I'm also wondering what to do. I came across a ligature method that uses shoe lace. I'll have to do some research if i can use it to ctb successfully
i've been keeping this in mind but i have an aversion to blood and would prefer it to be as painless as possible
 
tofu.cat

tofu.cat

tofu
Apr 6, 2026
4
I'm in a very similar situation as yours. I can't get any package. My room is checked. I can't have anything suspicious in my room. They even seized the plastic bags i had kept to try ctb using plastic bag method.
I'm also wondering what to do. I came across a ligature method that uses shoe lace. I'll have to do some research if i can use it to ctb successfully
my household is incredibly controlling despite me being an adult. the only reason why i'm there is because of agoraphobia + my condition (i can't work because of the physical aspect, i wouldn't get paid enough monthly if i forced myself to).
i recently moved out to the country and i haven't been coping well. i know it'll only go downhill from here and i'm already too tired to do anything.
 
imagonner

imagonner

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Aug 9, 2026
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I'm in a very similar situation as yours. I can't get any package. My room is checked. I can't have anything suspicious in my room. They even seized the plastic bags i had kept to try ctb using plastic bag method.
I'm also wondering what to do. I came across a ligature method that uses shoe lace. I'll have to do some research if i can use it to ctb successfully
i tried to strangle myself with my shoelaces when i was in prison, so they took them off me and i walked around with shoes with no laces... 🤬
 

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