about your life..

[luten]

No, just an incel.

that i cannot relate to.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

I would not feel comfortable going to someone else

I just said that because many psychiatrist know nothing about how dangerous the drugs they give out can be. I have brain damage because of those psychiatric drugs. Also from my experience many reduce human suffering to "chemical imbalances" (refuted decades ago) rather than looking at the context and the strong trauma and social aspects involved. Or looking at other health aspects that could be causing emotional symptoms.

But that's just me. If he helps by all means keep doing what helps you feel better :)

 

[luten]

I just said that because many psychiatrist know nothing about how dangerous the drugs they give out can be. I have brain damage because of those psych meds. Also from my experience many reduce human suffering to "chemical imbalances" (refuted decades ago) rather than looking at the context and the strong trauma and social aspects involved. Or looking at other health aspects that could be causing emotional symptoms.

But that's just me. If he helps by all means keep doing what helps you feel better :)

I am on an overdose, because my body developed a tolerance over years. Some family members blame my doctors for it. I don't, for several reasons. 1. He tried to help to control a permanent condition, neurosurgical one, 2, he is a psychiatrist, that is what they do, I could have said no at any point. 3. I am responsible for my own well-being, not him. Again, he tried to help me, and is still trying to help, infact we are meeting tomorrow to discuss getting of this drug, with use of ketamine theraphy. Again, I always tell myself that I am responsible for everything in my life, that is how I feel in control.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

I am on an overdose, because my body developed a tolerance over years. Some family members blame my doctors for it. I don't, for several reasons. 1. He tried to help to control a permanent condition, neurosurgical one, 2, he is a psychiatrist, that is what they do, I could have said no at any point. 3. I am responsible for my own well-being, not him. Again, he tried to help me, and is still trying to help, infact we are meeting tomorrow to discuss getting of this drug, with use of ketamine theraphy. Again, I always tell myself that I am responsible for everything in my life, that is how I feel in control.

I hope everything goes well getting of the drug. I understand your situation. I think mine is very different, I was severely injured but I do blame the doctors for several reasons
1. I didn't want or need drugs at all
2. I was a minor (13-17 years old)
3. I was coerced and threatened to take drugs
4. I was given ZERO informed consent about the potential permanent damage of the drugs
5. After I was injured I contacted the psychiatrist and instead of replying she ghosted me and blocked me

I'm not against psychiatry or drugs I'm against destroying lives, giving no informed consent, and coercing patients.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

LMAO compare to me, I'd say most people on this thread have decent, healthy schedule. My lifestyle right now is utter f****.

I go to sleep no sooner than 0:00AM, but really most of the days in my depressed episode, I go to sleep after 3 - 4 AM. I usually eat 1 - 2 meals per day. Take shower once every 3 - 4 days.

I'm currently a software engineer student. Most of the time I'm on my PC, either learn to code, playing game or sometimes fap, reading manga.

 

[WornOutLife]

is quetiapine the only meds you using?

No! I'm also taking lamotrigine!
I still have bad days (just like this weekend and this morning) but these pills are really helping me.

 

[luten]

No! I'm also taking lamotrigine!
I still have bad days (just like this weekend and this morning) but these pills are really helping me.

what do you drink? Whiskey ?

 

[WornOutLife]

what do you drink? Whiskey ?

Beer and champagne (extra brut)!
I'm supposed to quit drinking once and for all but if you ever come to Argentina, we could have some drinks while talking about the mysteries of life and death lol.

 

[luten]

Beer and champagne (extra brut)!
I'm supposed to quit drinking once and for all but if you ever come to Argentina, we could have some drinks while talking about the mysteries of life and death lol.

lol, that would be cool. I do enjoy a whiskey when i meet people (vacations), but never drink at home alone.

 

[summers]

Very flexible with almost everything in my "schedule". This is a reconstruction of what I've ended up doing rather than a schedule.

Wake up 7-9am.

Coffee.
Maybe a fruit or other meal.
Coffee again, vitamins.
Oatmeal, maybe eggs too.
More coffee.
1/2 Workout.
Shower.
Possible lunch.
Snack and protein shake.
Walk for around an hour (or not).
Dinner.
Protein shake, vitamins.
Snack.

Sleep 9-11pm.

Everything that's not listed is jacking off to animated porn and browsing SaSu.

Then again, who gives a fuck?

So do you sleep from 9-11pm, or go to sleep at that time? I wish I could sleep more than 2-3 hours. Lack of sleep is definitely hurting my gains...

 

[unworthy_]

Nothing but work and staying in my room with shitty pay. I could barely save. I have almost no savings. Im thinking of how to even arrange for my cremation. I need savings to be left behind

 

[luten]

I hate mornings so I get up at the absolutely last minute at 06:30. I literally don't have five minutes to spare. No breakfast, not even a cup of coffee. Then I go to work in the beloved commuter car, listening to my co-commuters mindless babble. I'm a teacher and have 4-5 lessons a day. It's usually enjoyable to interact with the teenagers and time often flies when I work. I try to avoid my colleagues as much as possible, but it's dificult. I usually eat lunch but I don't seldom skip it. Most of my work days are compressed so I get to go home comparatively early, once again listening to my co-commuters mindless babble. Had I been a normal person I would have eaten dinner with my family, but I have none. Instead, I eat something unhealthy in a joint or something prefabricated at home. It happens that I meet my best friend but I usually spend the evening alone in front of the computer, watching YouTube clips or movies, browse SS, or chat with other suicidal people. Sometimes I write but since my medication started working I've had problems finding inspiration. I should go to bed around ten, but I usually do so at midnight. I wake up tired in the morning and the whole sad routine is repeated.

i can picture you at back, sitting in the middle, with both hands on your knees, while having a Jason Alexander (from Seinfeld) smirk on your face, while your colleges talk over you.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

So do you sleep from 9-11pm, or go to sleep at that time? I wish I could sleep more than 2-3 hours. Lack of sleep is definitely hurting my gains...

2-3 hours sounds like a ctb method. I sleep 8-9h.

 

[luten]

Nothing but work and staying in my room with shitty pay. I could barely save. I have almost no savings. Im thinking of how to even arrange for my cremation. I need savings to be left behind

do you work 5 days a week? do you visit anyone? anyone visiting you? do you have family ? friends?

 

[Sensei]

i can picture you at back, sitting in the middle, with both hands on your knees, while having a Jason Alexander (from Seinfeld) smirk on your face, while your colleges talk over you.
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Ha ha! That's actually not that far from the truth.

 

[luten]

Ha ha! That's actually not that far from the truth.

lol